Chapter 102 Revenge (2)

The mysterious person told me bluntly on the phone that Lai Jun had fallen into his hands. They were very professional in their work and did not attract the attention of others. Even if Lai Jun's two roommates found out that Lai Jun was missing, they would only think that the bastard Lai Jun took their things and ran away, and would not suspect that he was kidnapped, so There will be no future troubles. Lai Jun and them are now in an abandoned private factory in Pukou District, waiting for me to come to inspect the goods. I have to keep in touch with them all the time.

I pressed the phone, and only carried a mobile phone, a few hundred yuan, and a bank card with 10,000 yuan in it. Just in case, I left the phone number of that mysterious person for Xiao Dong, and explained my whereabouts, and then I took a taxi and went straight to Pukou District.

On the way, I received another call, and the person asked me to meet at Pukou Park. I came to Pukou Park by car, and as soon as I got out of the taxi, a Jetta car drove up to me, and the mysterious figure greeted me with a smile to get on the car. After driving for another ten minutes, he took me to the abandoned private factory.

We walked into a dilapidated and desolate office building, and he led me into another room, but I didn't see Lai Jun. He took out an 8G flash drive from his body and handed it to me, saying that it was found from Lai Jun, which may be the thing I mentioned. He's not interested in this, and his employer didn't ask for it, so let me handle it. That person also said that Lai Jun had a premonition and wanted to see me. Of course he also called the head of the tax bureau.

I asked him where Lai Jun was, and he smiled and said that I didn't want to drink some water and rest for a while, I was just so anxious to see my old friend. I ignored his joke and insisted on seeing Lai Jun, and I would only pay if they promised to finish the job for me.

The man didn't say anything, and led me to another house. Through the dirty glass, I could see that Lai Jun was blindfolded and gagged, his hands and feet were tied behind his back and he was thrown on the ground, unable to move. There are 3 people standing. I asked the man if they had tied Lai Jun up, and the man smiled and said: What do you think? The method of tying the four horses backwards and hooves is strong, this bastard must feel uncomfortable.

I think of the night when Lai Jun was with Shen Ying, Shen Ying was bound by this method. It seems that there is really a theory of retribution in the dark. As soon as I think about it, I immediately feel the anger burning in my heart. Without waiting for that person's permission, I pushed open the door and entered, startling the three people in the room.

When I came to Lai Jun's side, I saw his nose was bruised and his face was swollen, and his mouth and nose were bloodstained. I guessed that he had been beaten by these people. I squatted down, tore off the towel that blocked his mouth, patted his somewhat red and swollen face and said: Lai Jun, don't you want to see me, I'm here.

Cough cough..., I guess it was you... who asked someone to fix me, and it was you...cough cough... he coughed and said.

Then you underestimate yourself too much, you are really hated by everyone, and I am not the only one who wants to deal with you. What do you want to say to me?

And the head of the tax bureau? Then is there Shen Ying's cousin? Ahem...you guys all hate me...there won't be Shen Ying, right? Ahem... His mind is still very clear.

I suppressed the anger in my heart, and said calmly: Don’t worry about this, you should talk to me, don’t you want to see me, it’s not easy for me to come all the way to see you, you know I’m busy It's on.

Well, cough cough......, can you give me a drink? I'm thirsty. I'll chat with you after drinking the water, cough cough... I'm not wronged if it falls into the hands of you or cousin Shen Ying, this is my retribution, but I'm not convinced if it falls into the hands of the bureau chief, cough cough...

I asked for half a bottle of water from a person next to me, and Lai Jun gulped it down before throwing away the empty bottle.

Lai Jun panted for a while, and even said thank you to me.

I asked him: Tell me, why are you willing to fall into the hands of me or cousin Shen Ying, but not in the hands of the bureau chief? Why?

No reason, because I hurt you and Shen Ying, but you didn't offend me at all. It was me who was obsessed with wanting to harm others and take revenge on this society. This is what I deserve. But that bureau chief is different, he cheated my fiancée and turned her into a rotten box, so I want to get revenge on this bureau chief, I fucked his wife, let his wife and him, and my fiancée All infected with STDs. Shen Ying also got a venereal disease, so you should suffer too, hahaha... He laughed wildly.

His smile suddenly aroused my anger. I stood up and raised my foot to kick and kick this bastard's face and body. It was the mysterious figure who stopped me. He was afraid that Lai Jun would be killed by me. To die, because there are still people who want to see Lai Jun.

I squatted down and asked Lai Jun again: "Bastard, there is an injustice and a debtor." Whoever harmed you, you can seek revenge from whomever, why did you harm me and Shen Ying?

Ahem...Actually...Actually, this is also Shen Ying's fault, it's her fault. I lead you to buy materials, don't you just want the 15% rebate, and it doesn't cost much. Which carpenter doesn't do this. If you don't give me such petty profits, let me suffer in front of the boss, I will hold a grudge against you. That day, I had a drink with my fellow villagers, and we were going to have sex after dinner, but Shen Ying insisted on screwing me back to work. Cough cough..., I went to your new house, and she was dressed so conspicuously and revealingly, so I went on drinking and fucked her. If she didn't ask me to go to the new house, it probably wouldn't be such a problem, ahem...

I didn't want others to hear about Shen Ying, so I got up and let those people out of the house, and I was going to talk to Lai JunTalk alone.

Then aren't you afraid that Shen Ying will hate you and call the police? You bastard really ate the heart of a bear and the guts of a leopard! I asked him angrily.

Don't be afraid, for a beautiful woman like Shen Ying, it's worth dying to have sex with her, ahem... Besides, I also had sex with the wife of the head of the Taxation Bureau before her. That bitch was obedient to me, drove me back to my hometown, and let me marry her in my family's ancestral field. She also found two official wives for me, let me, these rich and powerful wives, suck me dry one by one, ahem...

Have you watched the video I gave you? Your ex-wife has also been tamed by me, just because I have photos and videos of her being uploaded by me. She has nothing to do with me. Cough cough......, she dare not call the police, let alone let you know, for fear that you will despise her, she really wants to save face and suffer, this kind of educated woman is even more stupid...

My anger was aroused by him again, I swung my fist at this bastard's head, and slammed my body, which swollen my hands, and the people outside stopped me by knocking on the glass.

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Lai Jun spit out a mouthful of bloody foam from his mouth, opened his bloody mouth and continued to say: Haha, cough cough..., you are stimulated, after you divorce her, you regret it too, cough cough... ... To be honest, that girl Shen Ying still cares about you very much. Even in Shenzhen, she didn't give up on you, and she still thought that there would be a day when she and you would get back together again. She didn't give up until I found her again in Shenzhen and something happened.

Then tell me what's going on with you in Shenzhen. If you speak up, I won't beat you anymore, otherwise don't blame me for being ruthless. I threatened him.

Okay, I know I can't escape this time. Even if you don't want my life, the director will want my life, and I can tell you whatever I can tell you. Cough... Can you light me a cigarette? This bastard is making terms with me.

I took out a cigarette, lit it and took a puff before putting it in his mouth. As soon as Lai Jun took a few greedy puffs, he coughed violently again and vomited the cigarette to the ground.

, Ahem..., I can't afford to enjoy this cigarette anymore, so let me continue. Cough cough..., the wife of the bureau chief and I were in a car accident when we were driving on the road in March this year, and she was gone. Do you know what's going on? When she was driving, I took off her pants and put my hand into her crotch to mess with her. She struggled disobediently and accidentally bumped into the guardrail of the highway and overturned the car, ahem... I Injured, he climbed out of the car and ran, leaving the woman naked in the car. Afterwards, I heard that she was seriously injured and died. It must be some kind of road surveillance video or something, so that the bastard chief may know that I did it. As soon as I got scared, I ran to Shanghai to hide...

I don't want to hear this, you still tell me about you and Shen Ying in Shenzhen. I interrupted him, found a bottle of mineral water, and fed the bastard again.

All right. I know that Shen Ying divorced you. Ahem..., I secretly followed her cousin and found out about his home, but I couldn't find Shen Ying. Later I realized that Shen Ying might have left Nanjing, but I didn't know where she was going. Ahem... I found a gangster in an Internet cafe, and covered up Shen Ying's nude photos and posted them on several pornographic websites. Shen Ying probably saw it and knew it was me. She called my mobile phone with a fixed line and scolded me for sending her photos. That's how I knew she was in Shenzhen. You also have my cell phone number, but your number has been blacklisted by me, so you can't get through to my cell phone.

It took me a day to go to Shenzhen by train, and I found the landline. It took me another three days to find Shen Ying. I was not given as a scout for nothing. Ahem..., I followed her, found out that she was in her unit, and found out that she rented a small room by herself. Ahem... On the fifth night of going to Shenzhen, when she came home from get off work alone, I forced her into the house with a knife. That night I stripped her naked and prepared to fuck her again. She cried and begged me to let her go, saying that she had contracted an STD and was undergoing treatment. I told her that I passed it on to her, but I took medicine in time and cured it, so I can fuck her.

She said how can I let her go, and said I made her miserable. She knows that you also seem to have some regrets. It was her cousin who told her, so she still wants to get cured and return to Nanjing to find you, and she still doesn't give up on you. I told her that I still have her videos and photos on hand, and I have given you several videos. You have already given up on her, so she should also give up on you. Ahem... Shen Ying just gave up resisting and was fucked by me again.

When I looked for her again on the sixth night, she hid. I found a hotel to live in, and called you, trying to stimulate you to relieve your boredom. Ahem... On the seventh day, I went to Shen Ying's work unit to find her, and told her not to get rid of me, otherwise I would send her videos and photos to colleagues in her work unit. Ahem..., Shen Ying was scared, and discussed with me how to solve this matter. I told her to give me 100,000 yuan as soon as possible, otherwise I will give her the video and photos. She also bargained with me and agreed on 80,000 yuan.

That night, I went to find Shen Ying. She said she called you to ask for money, but you refused. As soon as she got angry, she called your mother and sued you. Your mother probably didn't respond, and Shen Ying had no choice. I told her, it’s okay if you don’t have money, but you have to use meat to top it up, ahem… 200 yuan a night, until the 80,000 yuan is covered. Shen Ying reluctantly agreed to me, and went to bed with me that night to pay off the debt.

I also underestimated Shen Ying, not knowing that extreme joy begets sorrow. Cough cough... that girl is playing with meAfter a while, I insisted on sitting on me to play, and after a few moments, I snapped and broke my dick. Cough cough... At that time, it hurt me to death, and I felt like my second child was being torn apart. Immediately afterwards, I saw my dick was gradually swollen, bruised, unable to straighten up, and bleeding from the head. Cough cough..., I didn't care about anything else, I put on my clothes and ran to the hospital for emergency treatment. Shen Ying was still with me at that time. When I was treating her, this bitch ran away.

When I came out of the hospital to look for her, she was gone, and I knew I had been tricked by this bitch. Cough cough... She definitely teased me on purpose, but I hate that I was obsessed with sex at the time. I didn't expect this soft-hearted girl to be so cruel. During the day, I went to her unit and residence to look for her, but she was not there. But I had already left her mobile phone in Shenzhen, so I called her and she turned off the mobile phone. Ahem..., I text her again, but she doesn't reply.

I stayed in Shenzhen to recuperate while looking for her everywhere. Later, I sent her a text message again, threatening her not to show up, and I sent her photos and videos all over Shenzhen. I couldn’t believe I couldn’t find her. Ahem... Sure enough, she called me again, saying that she went to raise money in those days, and now that I have almost raised money, I can meet with her. She asked me to meet at a teahouse the next afternoon, and she paid the money with one hand and delivered the goods with the other hand.

Ahem..., I went to the tea house on the afternoon of the appointment, and I saw Shen Ying waiting for me in a private room with a leather bag. When I met her, I scolded her for being heartless and immoral, and almost made me a eunuch. 80,000 yuan is not enough, and 200,000 yuan is needed to settle the bill.

Unexpectedly, Shen Ying was still very calm, and said that she would let me take the 30,000 yuan to see a doctor first, and she would ask my parents for the rest. Ahem..., I just took the bag and started counting the money. I didn't really want to ask her that much, but I just wanted to cheat her as much as I could.

When I was counting money, this girl suddenly showed a knife and stabbed me, ahem... At that time, she was desperate and fearless. At that time, my second child was still injured and was acting awkwardly. He was suddenly attacked by this girl and couldn't dodge in time, so he had to stretch out his hand to block it. Ahem..., I was stabbed in both hands by her, and I was also cut twice on my arms and body. With my kung fu, this bitch can't hurt me at all, but it's my dick and the table and chairs that are holding me back. Cough cough... I thought the situation was not good, so I fled without getting the money, and almost lost my life. I didn't dare to call the police, so I hid in Shenzhen for two days to continue recuperating.

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Lai Jun panted and continued: Two days later, I went to her unit to find her, and her colleagues said she had resigned. I went to look for her at her residence, and heard from the landlord that Shen Ying had withdrawn the rent three days ago, so she probably wasn't in Shenzhen after that. Ahem..., I saw that I couldn't find her like this, so I returned to my hometown dejectedly. Afterwards, I thought about it at home, and felt that I pushed her too hard, and she had no choice but to make such a bad move. At that time, she stabbed me with a knife in the teahouse. While crying, she called me a devil, which forced her to divorce, lost her lover and family, and got dirty all over her body. Ahem..., because I forced money from her, and almost killed her father and your mother.

Originally, I wanted to post all her photos and videos online to get revenge on her. But when you think about it later, if you do that again, it will drive both her and you into a hurry. Either you call the police, or seek revenge on my parents, neither of you will be settled, so you gave up this idea. Ahem..., I also know that I have committed a lot of crimes, and I am really sorry for Shen Ying and you, so I didn't trouble Shen Ying afterwards, let alone post photos and videos on the Internet.

But when I was talking to you in December, I was so angry that you were on the phone, so I decided to find a suitable time and send you Shen Ying's video. Ahem..., I recovered from my injuries and left my hometown. I was afraid that if you caught me, I would not dare to go to Nanjing. Instead, I went to Shanghai and did some decoration work there. Then I sent you those two videos in June 2008, you know that.

After Chinese New Year in February this year, my fellow villagers asked me to go to work in Nanjing again, and I re-hooked up with the wife of the head of the tax bureau by the way, and then I had the car accident in March. Cough cough..., I ran to Shanghai to hide again, always fearing that I would be wanted, but there was no movement, and I asked my fellow villagers in Nanjing, and they also said that there was nothing wrong. Because the company here did not pay the money owed to me, I returned to Nanjing in early August. I didn't expect that it took only a few days to fall into your hands.

I know I can't escape this time, and my retribution is coming. Ahem..., I did a lot of bad things to you and Shen Ying, and I deserve it. I can tell you the truth, I never sent Shen Ying’s photos and videos again, but I didn’t dare to delete those things, I kept them in a flash drive that I carried with me, and I wanted to use those things as my lifesaver symbol. Cough cough......, that flash drive was seized by them, if you bring that flash drive over and destroy it, there will be no further trouble.

Yesterday I dreamed that the dead wife of the bureau chief smiled and asked me for a drive. When I woke up, I thought this dream was not a good omen, so I planned to pack up and leave. I didn't expect that my fellow villagers had just left early in the morning, and I was tricked by those people. Ahem..., my life is worth the life of that bureau chief's wife, and I think it should be.

I am not a bad person, I was forced by the world. Cough cough..., with my intelligence, if I stay in the army, I can definitely look like a human being, and definitely not the person I am now. It is a pity that I have no money.

After I was demobilized, I wanted to farm at home and marry a wife, but the land was taken by urban residents, and they also dumped waste water, waste gas, and waste into our land.It pollutes our living world, forcing us to leave our hometowns to work in other places, and leave the land left by our ancestors to you urbanites to spoil. Cough cough..., my fiancée was ruined by the bureau chief when he was working as a nanny in Nanjing. I don't want to wear a cuckold, so I can only regret the marriage. Ahem..., so I hate this world and want to do something to retaliate against this society.

Brother Zhao, I have made such a big enmity with you, but you have done nothing to my parents Qiu. Ahem..., I knew you were a good person, so I just said what I said and didn't hide anything. I hope you can give me a good time. If I fall into their hands, I can only suffer. Life would be worse than death, but in the end I will still die. Rather than dying, I would rather die by your hands, and I am willing to do so. As the old saying goes, when a person is about to die, his words are good. I sincerely beg you to end me. I owe you guys, but I don't think I owe the chief anything.

Cough cough..., you just need to pick up some iron rod or big wooden stick on the ground, and hit my head a few times, and our old score will be settled. How about it, Brother Zhao, I beg you.

I heard him say so much frankly, and felt that this bastard didn't seem to be telling lies, so I hesitated in my heart: should I settle with him for this, or should I just leave and leave him to those people to clean up? I thought for a while and decided to give up revenge. After all, a life lawsuit is a threat to the future life of Wenwen and me. Lai Jun's fate will never get better, so why should I continue to abuse him.

I got up and opened the door to go out, and I heard Lai Jun shouting behind me, please, Brother Zhao. You kill me, even if you do good deeds and accumulate virtue...

I found the mysterious person with a blank face, and I told him that I didn't plan to do anything to Lai Jun, as for what they did to Lai Jun, I didn't care, just pretend there was no such thing, and I would give him the money.

He smiled and said: What's the matter, Manager Zhao, can't you be cruel? Even if you let him go, no one else will let him go. Now he already knows who is making trouble for him, and he will sue us if we let him go, and he will not get away today. Cutting the weeds does not remove the roots, the spring breeze blows and regenerates, showing kindness to this bastard is harming oneself...

I waved my hand impatiently and interrupted him, saying that I didn't want my hands to be dirty with Lai Jun's blood, and I didn't want to take any risk for Lai Jun. He just took me to find a bank, and I took the money out of the card and gave it to him, and this matter has nothing to do with me. I hope that we will not communicate with each other in the future, and everyone forgets what happened today.

He smiled and said that people in this business use people's money to eliminate disasters for others. There are rules and regulations, and they will never trouble me in the future. On the contrary, if I need his help in the future, just ask him. Since I am willing to treat Lai Jun like this, he doesn't stop me either. Lai Jun, a reptile, disappeared from this world. Except for his family, no one will care about him, and he will never cause any trouble for me.

He ended up driving me away. I found a bank on the way, and I took out the money and gave it to him. I broke up with him and took a taxi back to work.

I sat in my office chair, pondering what Lai Jun said, and thought over and over again the story of Shen Ying and Lai Jun in Shenzhen for a long time. Shen Ying was once again played and coerced by Lai Jun in Shenzhen, and was raped by Lai Jun with illness, which made me feel like I was cuckolded again, and my heart was filled with anger.

Although Shen Ying took revenge on Lai Jun and stabbed Lai Jun, that was the result of her knowing that her father and my mother almost died because Lai Jun blackmailed her, otherwise she would Treat Lai Jun that way? Why didn't she call the police, and kept showing mercy to Lai Jun. Didn't the price she paid have educated her enough? What kind of feelings does she have for Lai Jun? Is it hatred, helplessness, or love because of adultery?

This question upsets me like eating a fly. Later, I could only comfort myself in this way. After the divorce, Shen Ying and I have nothing to do with each other. What she does in the future is none of my business.

Until now I have not seen Lai Jun or heard any news about him, probably he has really evaporated in the world.

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I interrupted Zhao Jianxin's narration: Xiao Zhao, so Lai Jun got what he deserved?

Zhao Jianxin said calmly: It should be, but I can't say for sure that he was really vaporized.

Now that Lai Jun has evaporated, Shen Ying has remarried, and you have found your happy home, what knots do you still have unresolved?

I still have a knot in my heart, which is Shen Ying. I still can't figure out the relationship between her and Lai Jun. Why did she say such hurtful words that he is better than you when they divorced? Could it be that she resented me for abandoning her? But it's clear that she made a mistake first, and I made a mistake later! These days, when I think of Shen Ying and these past events, I feel sad and sad, and I feel as if I have returned to the mental state after the divorce. Zhao Jianxin said sadly.

You said that Xiao Zhou knew about Shen Ying, and she advised you to forgive Shen Ying and not to worry about the past. What do you think about this? I asked him again.

Wenwen quarreled with me because of this. Since I got acquainted with her, I have never quarreled with her, but unexpectedly, we had a big quarrel because of Shen Ying.

Have you ever wondered why? Xiao Zhao. It stands to reason that without you and Shen Ying's divorce, you and Xiao Zhou wouldn't be able to get together. She should be thankful for Shen Ying's cheating. There's no reason why your husband and wife are at odds because of Shen Ying's affair? I went on to ask in depth.

Wenwen complained that I was ruthless and hard-hearted. She was standing in the position of a woman, so of course she wanted towith woman. She asked me, if she met someone like Lai Jun and was threatened, would I kick her out of the house immediately, willing to let her suffer from poverty and illness, and never forgive her? This is my heart disease, I suddenly became angry, and we had a big fight because of this.

Wenwen cried a lot because of this, ignored me for several days, and did the meal, but didn't sleep with me. It was my old father-in-law who came to my house, so she had to sleep with me again, but I was not allowed to touch her. We didn't fully reconcile until I came to Xi'an for a meeting. But I know she is a good woman, and I won't argue with her.

After divorcing Shen Ying, I admit that Shen Ying is still in my heart, but that doesn't mean I should forgive her. She easily married that man who was nine years older than her just for someone else to cure her. She is too cheap. Is she still the proud and self-respecting Shen Ying from before? Zhao Jianxin was still angry when he talked about this.

I laughed and said: Xiao Zhao, speaking of it, you are really a lucky guy who met two of your true loves one after another, but you can't kill Shen Ying's love for you because of Xiao Zhou's love for you. Since ancient times, only newcomers laugh, who would like to hear old people cry? You can't be unkind to Shen Ying if you have Xiao Zhou. I think Xiao Zhou's incomprehension of your approach is not just because she is a woman. I heard you talk about Xiao Zhou's character and work, and I feel that she may view Shen Ying's cheating from a kind and fair standpoint.

Although Shen Ying has also found her home, but after all, there is a 9-year age gap between the two parties, so it is inevitable that they are inconsistent in some aspects. I think she married that doctor more out of gratitude. Think about it, a woman is helpless, poor and sick in a different place, and there is a person who cares and loves her, and her ex-husband has already broken up with her, and the two have no future. What are you waiting for if she doesn't marry? Not to mention that Shen Ying is a weak woman, if I were a big man like me, in that situation, if I met such a female doctor, I would marry him too. Wrong, I will marry her too. You can marry Xiao Zhou, but is it true that Shen Ying will guard you for the rest of her life and become a widow? Your thinking is unfair.

Zhao Jianxin murmured: Didn't I tell you that I was persuaded by my mother to change my mind and look for her again, but I didn't expect that she would get married less than a year after the divorce, but I have been married since the divorce. It took a long time to get out of that shadow. Thinking about it from this angle, I am also extremely dissatisfied with Shen Ying.

Xiao Zhao, your thinking is even more wrong. At that time, you had already completely torn your face because of the matter of the parents of both parties. Does Shen Ying still dare to have expectations for you? Do you still have expectations for Shen Ying after that incident? You answer me. I refuted him without hesitation.

Zhao Jianxin was silent after hearing this.

I went on to say: I am really sorry for you, you actually missed the best chance to save Shen Ying and your marriage. When Shen Ying was pestered by Lai Jun to ask you for money in Shenzhen, you should not refuse her outright, but promised her right then that you would go to Shenzhen to find her in person. Of course, you would say that you didn't know the truth about Shen Ying's murder at that time, but after all, you have known each other and loved each other for 7 years. Shen Ying and Lai Jun's affair for half a month is actually not a full-fledged affair, and it easily defeated your seven-year relationship. Did you lose this defeat?

Don't you have no confidence in your seven-year relationship? Is your seven-year relationship no better than their half-month affair? You are looking at things from your standpoint and perspective too much, and you have never thought about Shen Ying's sake. Even your resignation was not imposed on you by Shen Ying's cheating, but you asked for it yourself. Forgive my bluntness.

I stopped, took a sip of beer and continued: The tragedy of your marriage with Shen Ying can be characterized as a tragedy of character, and both of you are at fault. Shen Ying's character is too arrogant and self-willed, and she loves face too much; you are too paranoid, you are a stickler as the saying goes, but in fact, you also love your own face. You are all pursuing perfect character too much, but the final ending is not perfect, even tragic. The essence of your marriage tragedy is an out-and-out tragedy of character.

It's wrong for Shen Ying not to call the police, to compromise, and to complain to you. In order to prevent you from being hurt by her cheating, she is willing to blame herself and sacrifice her own happiness to save or save your face. It is even more stupid, but You can't help but admit that this is also her painstaking effort. You don't believe Shen Ying's explanation on the night of July 2, but I, an outsider, absolutely believe that she is telling the truth.

In the conversation with her cousin, Shen Ying showed that she is awake again, she realizes her love for you, she is still willing to be with you, and she is willing to tell you the whole truth. It's just a pity, as the saying goes, the truth brings pain, but ignorance brings happiness. How nice it would be if she didn't tell you how she felt when she liked Lai Jun, that sentence would be a great psychological harm to any husband. But Shen Ying is indeed confessing to you sincerely, but she is a bit pedantic, and it can even be said that she is brain-dead. She should listen to what her cousin said and not speak out.

Of course, you also said later that by watching the video and listening to the recording, you understood the truth and knew that you made a mistake. I can't blame you for this.

Shen Ying has been traumatized after her divorce. She paid a heavy price for her cheating, and even found a husband who is not of the same age. I have to say that you are also responsible for this. It was your hasty divorce that drove her to nowhere, and she was bullied by Lai Jun again in Shenzhen. It was you who were determined not to give her money, which forced her to take risks, and Lai Jun desperately, and finally had to marry a divorced doctor . I believe that even if you two have hurt each other, if you and the doctor were present and let her choose, she would still choose you, but unfortunately you were not present at that time.

Text Chapter 106 Persuasion (2)I went on to explain my views on the tragedy of Zhao Jianxin and Shen Ying's marriage: From your story, I can feel Shen Ying's immaturity, she is still a child mentality. She regards you as a family member like her parents, and will forgive her mistakes like her own parents, but she is wrong, you are not her parents at all. You will forgive her for small things and small things, but you must never forgive her for big things.

I have a younger sister who is 4 years younger than me. She is extremely pampered in front of me. She knows that my brother will spoil her and let her go, but she will never be like me in front of her husband. She Know the difference here. Flesh and blood kinship is innate and inseparable, while the relationship between husband and wife is acquired and needs years of consolidation and cultivation. It's a pity that Shen Ying has been pampered, she doesn't understand this.

At this time, the rain outside the window has stopped, but there is still a little bit of accumulated rain coming from the sound of leaves falling to the ground, which further sets off the tranquility of the night. It's now around 2am, but neither of us has any sleep.

I went on to say: Xiao Zhao, I have talked so much with you at length, not to force you to agree with my point of view, how you think and how to do things is up to you, I just feel sorry for you and Shen Ying, at this point My sister-in-law Shen Ying and I have the same idea. I have another true story about my wife’s cheating that I want to tell you. The protagonists of this story are my classmate Hao Ming and his wife Chen Jing...

Then, I spent about an hour telling Zhao Jianxin the story of Chen Jing's affair with Liu Yufei. Zhao Jianxin didn't interrupt, just blinked his eyes and listened patiently to my story.

After listening to the story I told, without waiting for me to ask him, Zhao Jianxin took the initiative to speak: Brother He, your classmate Hao Ming is really not simple. I admire his tolerance and love for his wife very much. He is much better at dealing with Chen Jing's cheating than I am. You want to use this to educate me. This is the purpose of telling me this story.

Yes, you are right, but not only that. To be honest, at first I couldn’t approve of Hao Ming’s forgiveness to Chen Jing, and I couldn’t understand his actions, but after hearing the story between you and Shen Ying tonight, I was enlightened, and I really realized that Hao Ming did nothing wrong .

Hao Ming is grateful to his wife who is seven years younger than him for her love and trust in him before marriage, and he loves her wife sincerely, so he didn't push her when she was about to fall into the quagmire, but rescued her in time Come out and give yourself and your wife and daughter a complete home. Even so, Hao Ming still paid the price for Chen Jing's cheating. They were forced to go abroad, leaving their hometown and relatives and friends where they were born and raised, and became second-class citizens in a foreign country with no relatives. The consequences were also serious.

In fact, in my opinion, Chen Jing is less worthy of saving than Shen Ying. In order to satisfy her filthiness, Chen Jing threw herself into the embrace of a demon. When Hao Ming was not at home, he fucked that Liu Yufei on his own bed and let his young daughter see. She also used her daughter to attract her husband's attention and cover her adulterer's escape from the house. After her husband came back, she still fooled around with that guy shamelessly many times, and even planned to divorce her husband and marry that stick Liu Yufei. Now I doubt whether Chen Jing still loved Hao Ming during that time, she was cheating almost physically and mentally.

On the other hand, what about Shen Ying? She was coerced by Lai Junhe, and she had an affair with that villain as a last resort. Of course, many of her actions were wrong, but it is undeniable that she still loves you and cares about you. She was just cheating, she would never fall in love with the villain, I firmly believe that.

After Chen Jing cheated, she didn't make much effort to save her marriage. She only woke up at the last moment and protected Hao Ming, so she was worth saving; Lai Jun, but still did not get what he wanted. In order to save your face, she didn't want you to suffer from her cheating. She made a unilateral sacrifice, but she still didn't get your understanding. It's a pity for her painstaking efforts and kindness. She took the initiative to leave the house and divorce, not for the sake of continuing to live with Lai Jun. In this regard, her reasons for divorce are much stronger than Chen Jing's.

In my opinion, you have more reason to forgive your wife than Hao Ming, but you didn't do it. I think your main purpose of telling this story is to let you compare Chen Jing and Shen Ying, Hao Ming and yourself, and realize some truths from it. Unfortunately, we met too late, and you also heard this story too late. However, your incident happened in June and July of 2007, while the stories of Hao Ming and Chen Jing happened in June and July of 2008, a whole year difference.

Now the relationship between you and Shen Ying is irretrievable, if I say anything else, it won't help, it will only increase your troubles. I agree with Xiao Zhou's words, you should forgive Shen Ying and stop worrying about the past. But why can't you forgive Shen Ying, or even get her forgiveness? You have both done harm to each other mercilessly.

A person who is always indulging in resentment and regret, how can he face his new life with a straight mind? I think you should bless Shen Ying to find a decent destination. After all, you have loved each other before and Had a sweet and warm time. This is good for yourself and others. You may not be able to figure it out now, but when you have accumulated a certain amount of life experience, I think you will figure it out one day.

Zhao Jianxin was silent again, and it was a long silence.

I took out my mobile phone and showed Zhao Jianxin the photo of Hao Ming's family under the Eiffel Tower that I had reproduced. Zhao Jianxin looked at it and said, "Chen Jing is really a top-notch beauty, and Hao Ming looks very sensible, magnanimous, and also a handsome guy. They are really a natural couple and a perfect match." heThat's right, saving the family and saving the wife is something to be respected and admired...

We were relatively silent for a while, but I can understand the reason and mood of Zhao Jianxin's silence now.

I remembered Lai Jun's USB flash drive, so I asked Zhao Jianxin, "Xiao Zhao, is there anything nasty in Lai Jun's USB flash drive?" Have you read it?

I have read it. There are those videos and photos of Shen Ying, which I have seen before. There are also photos and videos of the tax commissioner's wife, and nothing else. After I roughly read it, I directly destroyed the flash drive directly, so as not to leave any future troubles. I also deleted those videos and photos from my computer at home. After all, those things left me with shame and painful memories, which are not worth saving. But I kept the recording of Shen Ying and her cousin, because it contained Shen Ying's memories of our past relationship. I listened to it a few times, and it was very sad...

Xiao Zhao, I assure you, I will not tell others the story of you and Shen Ying, just let your past be dusted. I sighed.

Finally, I asked him: Xiao Zhao, if there is no Lai Jun, do you think your marriage with Shen Ying will last long? Or if you have children, would you forgive Shen Ying and Lai Jun for cheating like this?

Zhao Jianxin sighed and said: I think without Lai Jun, our marriage would still be stumbling. But having a child, I may not forgive Shen Ying and Lai Jun's derailment, this is determined by my personality...

What is your new opinion about what Shen Ying said when she divorced? He is stronger than you? I continued.

I have a new opinion, but I'm not sure... Zhao Jianxin lowered his head and said.

I wanted to say something, but after thinking about it, I felt that there was no need to say any more. I finally said this to Zhao Jianxin: There are two tragedies in life—one is not getting what you want, and the other is getting it. This is what Wilde, the representative of the British aesthetic school, once said. Although the world is impermanent, many things are often like this. It's getting late today, let's have a rest.

It was already past 3 o'clock in the morning when we lay down, but Zhao Jianxin and I were both tossing and turning on the bed, having trouble falling asleep. I didn't fall asleep until the sun was bright.

Text Chapter 107 Invitation to a Beauty

It was already past 11 noon when I got up. I got up and took a look at Zhao Jianxin's bed, and found that he had disappeared.

I sat up and recalled how Zhao Jianxin told his story last night, and I still felt very uncomfortable. I sighed for the outcome of his divorce with Shen Ying, and also mourned for Shen Ying's tragic experience. Fortunately, they each have a relatively good ending now, and I feel a little better.

The marriage they should have had is as beautiful as crystal, but it is also as fragile and fragile as crystal. It is a pity that if they cherish and take good care of it, it will not end like this.

After I washed up, I went to the restaurant for lunch alone. After dinner, I took a walk outside the hotel and found that after a night of rain, the weather in Xi'an suddenly turned cold, and chrysanthemum petals were everywhere on the ground. They have sunk into the muddy water, been defaced, trampled, no longer bright and beautiful on the branches. The bleak and lonely scene in autumn makes people feel gloomy and gloomy.

I went back to the room alone and absent minded. I still didn't see Zhao Jianxin, so I continued to catch up on sleep, and I didn't want to go to the equipment exhibition venue again.

I didn't wake up until after 5:00 p.m., and found that Zhao Jianxin was also lying on his bed, sound asleep. I got up lazily and quietly, made a cup of tea and drank it, and then I recovered my energy.

When it was almost six o'clock, I greeted Zhao Jianxin to get up and go to the restaurant for dinner. Zhao Jianxin said that he had no appetite and wanted to catch up on sleep, so I went to the restaurant alone.

When I was eating in the restaurant, I saw Tan Rui looking around with the buffet tray in the restaurant, as if looking for someone, so I took the initiative to say hello to her.

Tan Rui smiled when she saw me, greeted me very politely, and told me to sit at a table with her after choosing the meal, because she had something to say to me. I picked out my favorite food with a plate, and went to sit with Tan Rui, but seeing that Tan Rui was surrounded by three or four of her admirers, I had no choice but to hide at the table beside me and eat alone.

Seeing me at the table next to me, Tan Rui walked over to me with a plate and chatted with me while eating. It turned out that she was discussing with me what I would do tomorrow. I said that tomorrow I plan to go to Xi'an's west-line tourist spots, such as Famen Temple, Qianling Mausoleum, Prince Yide's Tomb, and the Big Wild Goose Pagoda and Forest of Steles in the urban area.

Tan Rui asked with a smile: Brother He, I have nothing to do tomorrow. I once promised you that if I have time, I will make time to accompany you on sightseeing, what do you think?

Of course I couldn't wish for it, but I still gave in out of politeness. Tan Rui deliberately pretended to be angry, pouted and said, "Brother He, you mother-in-law are not happy." When others begged me to play with them, I ignored them. I offered to accompany you on a tour of Xi'an's historical sites, but you pushed me back and forth. Don't you give me face?

I hastily argued: Then I am embarrassed to disturb you. Your conference affairs team has been very fortunate these days, which makes me really... really...

Well, well, you're welcome. That's it, I'll drive with you tomorrow, just the two of us. What I said the day you came here, I must do it. If you are embarrassed, when I have a chance to go to Hangzhou, you can go out with me to play, and it will be evened out. tanRui smiled sweetly, with various gestures.

I was moved by her sincerity, and felt warm and happy in my heart, so I nodded in agreement. I also reciprocated and extended an invitation to her, hoping that she will go to Hangzhou for fun when she is free, and I will definitely spare time to accompany her to the end. We decided to leave on time at 8:30 tomorrow morning, and we will wait for each other in the lobby of the hotel.

I went back to the room and found that Zhao Jianxin was waiting for me in a suit ready to go.

I wondered what he was doing, he laughed and said: Brother He, I have been waiting for you for a long time. I'm going back later, anyway, the meeting is over, there's nothing else to do, and staying here is just killing time. I deliberately waited for you to come back to say goodbye to you. If you have a chance to go to Nanjing in the future, please come to me. We will talk about it at that time.

I didn't understand how Zhao Jianxin said he just left. I guessed that he was thinking about the decoration of the new house at home, so he was in a hurry to go back, so I didn't ask any more questions. After we left each other's mobile phone numbers, I wish him a smooth journey and take care on the road.

Zhao Jianxin said goodbye to me, pulled his trolley case and walked out.

The moment he was about to push the door, my heart moved, and I stopped him: Xiao Zhao, don't leave in a hurry. I have a sentence, I don't know if I should say it or not?

Zhao Jianxin stopped, turned his head to look at me puzzled, and asked me, "Brother He has something to say, but it's okay to say it." We have been together for the past few days, and we are open and honest with each other. Is there anything we can't say?

I sincerely said: This is the case. Xiao Zhao, you are about to enter a new life now, I still want to advise you to let go of that burden from your heart, forget about the holidays between you and Shen Ying, and don't let the shadow of your divorce with her in the past affect your future with Xiao Zhou Life. You are a man from the Northeast. If you want to be able to afford it and let it go, you have to think about it and look far away. I want to advise you to throw away and delete the photos of Shen Ying in your wallet and mobile phone, forget about Shen Ying's past, and think about your relationship with Xiao Zhou. Don't let Xiao Zhou see the photo of Shen Ying in your hand. Ying photo. You know, women are jealous. Let Xiao Zhou see those photos, you will be passive, and that's what I'm telling you.

After hearing what I said, Zhao Jianxin glanced at me gratefully, then let go of the trolley case in his hand, took out his mobile phone, and called up the photo of Shen Ying in the mobile phone, looking at the mobile phone as if hesitant. In the end, he was cruel and completely deleted these photos in front of me. Then he took out his wallet, took out Shen Ying's beautiful and elegant photo, and looked at it carefully.

I could see his hesitation from his expression, and I couldn't bear to force him to make a decision, so I said to him: "Okay, this is just a suggestion from me, don't rush to deal with it right away." A picture, on the road, you might as well think about it before making a decision. You still have to hurry, so let's do it for now.

I sent Zhao Jianxin to the car where the conference affairs team took him to the airport, and we waved goodbye.

I looked up at the afterglow of the setting sun, silently wishing this brother who had been with me for a few days in my heart. For some reason, I felt an unspeakable melancholy again.

I walked to the elevator and prepared to go back to my room. But the hotel's two elevators couldn't get down for a long time, so I decided to go up by the safe passage.

While slowly climbing up the stairs, I lowered my head and pondered the story of Zhao Jianxin and Shen Ying. I didn't know how many floors I climbed, and suddenly I heard a man and a woman arguing from above my head, which woke me up from my contemplation.

Text Chapter 108: Attracting Bees and Butterflies

Director Zhang, let go of my hand, what do you look like, what will others think when they see it? A female voice shouted in a low voice, somewhat angrily.

I don't care, Ruirui, I hope you can give me a chance. You like me, I like you too, and I like you so much that I will go crazy. I can't eat or sleep these days, it's all because of you, can't you pity me? A male voice begged pitifully.

Director Zhang, I know you like me, but I just respect you as the leader and big brother. I don't mean that much to you. Don't think too much about it. You should think about your sister-in-law.

Ruirui, have you forgotten the feeling of being in love with each other when we went on a business trip to Yunnan last time? At that time, I could feel that you had a good impression of me, and I had already been interested in you. We wore local ethnic minority costumes and took a group photo together. That feeling must be a feeling deeper than goodwill, which you and I both understand.

Then was then, now is now. What's more, that's also your wishful thinking. I just cooperated with you and took a few photos. I don't have the feeling you said.

Ruirui, what you say is so cruel and unfeeling. I don't believe what you're saying now, you were definitely interested in me at the time. I took those photos and took a closer look. Your eyebrows are affectionate, like a shy little daughter-in-law facing her husband. My feeling is absolutely unmistakable. The man said with certainty.

No, you're wrong, I definitely didn't mean what you said. You and I are both in the same work unit, how could I have the thought of being sorry to my sister-in-law. If that's the case, how can I have the face to see my sister-in-law again? I will never have the feeling of being ashamed of my sister-in-law with you.

Ruirui, my yellow-faced woman and I have lost our relationship for a long time, and there is no real relationship between us as a husband and wife. Sooner or later, we will divorce. I only like you now. If you can promise to be nice to me, or even marry me, I promise to go back and ask her for a divorce immediately. You are smart, beautiful, and considerate, and I am also talented and capable. We are a perfect match.

Director Zhang,Don't say that, I won't promise you. I appreciate your talent, but it doesn't mean that I will fall in love with you, you are wrong. I... I have someone I like, but he is definitely not you.

who is he? Don't tell me it's He Wei, the barbarian who sang with you. That boy looks like a dog, with spring eyes, a southern face and a northern face, with thin skin and white flesh, he is a bit attractive to women, but you can't trust him. He is definitely a playboy, a little boy who always gives up.

I never thought that there is still my business here. I am so virtuous in the eyes of Director Zhang. Did I offend you in any way? I thought indignantly in my heart.

How do you know that Mr. He is that kind of person? I think Mr. He is a very introverted, cultivated and honest person, not like the kind of person you said.

How do you know him so well? I said, these days I see you all get together for meetings, dinners, and singing love songs together, so it turns out that you have been interested in him for a long time.

Director Zhang, this is a personal matter of mine, and you may be too lenient. I'm your subordinate, and you can take care of work, but you can't take care of your personal feelings! The woman said firmly.

I am for your own good. You are still young and inexperienced, you cannot see through people...

How do you know I can't see through people? If you want to say that I can't see through people, I don't think I can see through you. I didn't expect you to be this kind of person. If I had known that you were the kind of person who was eating in the bowl and still staring at the basin, I wouldn't have taken any pictures with you. You're teasing me behind your back like this, how do you tell me to behave. Director Zhang, you are a family man, please respect yourself. I am still an innocent unmarried woman, you will harm me like this.

Ruirui, feelings are not as simple as you said, and they are not so easy to distinguish. After I came back from Yunnan, I was fascinated by you, I didn't know what to eat, and I just wanted to be with you. I have hinted to you before that you are not as unfeeling as you are today. As I told you just now, I like you and I am willing to marry you. As long as you promise me, I will divorce my wife immediately, even if I transfer you from here and arrange you to go to another unit, so that you don't have to worry about the future, don't you think this is okay?

No, I'm still an unmarried woman, why should I marry a married man. I still want to find an unmarried man, I don't want to wrong myself.

Ruirui, you don't know, only a married man knows how to love the woman he likes. Those who have never been married don't know how to love women. It takes some marriage experience before they understand how to love a woman, that's what I am.

Director Zhang, now that you know how to love women, why don't you love your wife? This can also save your marriage. I think my sister-in-law still has a deep affection for you, and everyone can't see any problems in your marriage at all.

We kept it a secret, of course you outsiders can't see anything, but only we know the joys and sorrows.

Alright, Director Zhang. The matter between you and your sister-in-law is your own private matter, so don't involve me in it, I don't want to get involved. I only have respect for you from subordinates to superiors, and I have no other ideas. If I caused you any misunderstandings in the past, then I will make a statement to you today, what you want to do with your wife has nothing to do with me, I will not fall in love with you and marry you because of your divorce. If you insist on forcing me, I will submit my resignation to the unit after this meeting, and you and I will go our separate ways in the future, and there will never be any relationship.

As soon as the girl's voice fell, I heard the sound of high-heeled shoes rushing down. I quickly turned around and walked a few steps, and hid in through the safety door next to me.

At this time, I still heard the man still shouting unwillingly: "Ruirui, come back, let's have a good talk...

But the clicking sound of women's high heels did not stop, but went down the stairs, the sound kept getting smaller and farther away.

I didn't want to take the stairs anymore, so I waited for the elevator on that floor and went back to my room.

I was lying on the bed thinking about this matter, and I was vaguely disappointed with Tan Rui, because I was too familiar with that Ruirui's voice, and she was Tan Rui. That man was Director Zhang of the organizing committee—Tan Rui's department leader.

Text Chapter 109 Beauty Favor

Tan Rui is a beautiful woman, so she will naturally attract many chasing bees and butterflies. In the past few days, I have seen six or seven young men chasing after her like flies chasing smells, but I never imagined that the same is true of this pious and married director Zhang. He looks thirty-seven or eight years old, and looks quite similar to Zhang Jiayi, the actor who played Song Siming in the TV series "Snail House". He looks restrained, stable, and very personable, but in his heart, he is obsessed with love and lust. Tan Rui works under him, so sooner or later he will be captured by him.

To be honest, after Zhao Jianxin told me about Shen Ying's story, I became even more distrustful of beautiful women. Qiqi, Chen Jing, and Shen Ying are all beauties. They all cheated one after another for various reasons, causing endless pain to their lovers and husbands who love them. I have been made by them. fear. Now this big beauty Tan Rui is so active and enthusiastic towards me, it will inevitably make me feel illusory and unreal.

There is nothing wrong with women being beautiful, but beautiful women are often selfish, arrogant and domineering. Isn't that the case for Shen Ying, isn't it for Chen Jing, only Qiqi is better, but doesn't she just think that she doesn't want to trust me. Moreover, beautiful women are often the targets of all kinds of men. Even Shen Ying, an intellectual beauty, has become a migrant worker Lai Jun.A plate of mouth-watering delicacy in the eyes.

There are too many temptations for beauties in the world, and beauties often can't hold back their vanity and are easily seduced by these temptations. It's not bad to marry rich and powerful people directly, I'm afraid it's more Gan made a wall of red apricots, betrayed his lover, husband and family, and did all kinds of immoral things. This kind of news report is overwhelming in various media, and it is not uncommon to see, but the beauties still have to fight one after another, getting more and more courageous, and there is a tendency to carry out the derailment to the end.

Sometimes I really feel that it is necessary to re-advocate the three obediences and four virtues of my ancestors, even if it is only for those beautiful women. In fact, not to mention beauties, ugly women in this world are also pretending to be mischievous and ostentatious, let alone wealthy beauties.

Since Tan Rui met me on the day of picking up the plane, she has left a deep impression on me. She is beautiful, smart, warm and generous, considerate, shrewd and capable, easy-going, refined temperament, and has a fascinating feminine open-minded beauty. I like her very much, even secretly. I can also see that she seems to have a good impression of me, but I am a little baffled by this. After all, we just met by chance and we have only known each other for a few days, so she is a bit too considerate to me like this.

She is six years younger than me, and I am 33 years old. Although I have never been married, after all, the golden age has been wasted for a few years, and forehead wrinkles have appeared on my forehead. What is Tan Rui doing instead of looking for a young and handsome guy who is younger than me, but staring at me, a prospective uncle who has passed his thirties. Although Director Zhang pointed out that Tan Rui's favorite person may be me, but Tan Rui is not completely sure.

Nowadays, girls treat their feelings in a changeable way. There are several love goals on hand to keep and keep. Isn’t that the saying? Wide selection and focus on training. Maybe I’m just one of her target candidates. I’d better not be too pretentious Passionate as well.

I thought wildly all night, and I made up for it during the day, so I couldn't fall asleep until late at night. Finally, I got up and drank two cans of beer before falling asleep peacefully.

The next day I was awakened by Tan Rui's phone call. I heard Tan Rui blame me on the phone, because it is already 8:40 in the morning, 10 minutes past the appointed time, it seems that I am already late. I kept apologizing to her on the phone with a wry smile. After pressing the phone, I hurriedly got up, went to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and got dressed. It took me only eight minutes, which is really fast.

When I went downstairs to the hall, I saw Tan Rui wearing a pair of sunglasses, with an expression as gorgeous as peaches and plums, as cold as ice. Although I couldn't see her eyes, from her fair and calm appearance, I could feel her displeasure to some extent. That's right, I'm a big man and a beautiful woman is late for an appointment and makes her wait. It's only natural for her to be unhappy.

I saw that she changed her outfit today: she was wearing a gray and white striped knitted cardigan on her upper body, with a light gray round neck T-shirt inside, and that long chain ruby ​​necklace around her neck. The hair is still loosely scattered on the shoulders. It is the black slim jeans and white capa sneakers she likes to wear, which makes her figure slimmer and slender. This attire made her look simple, capable and glamorous. It seemed that she had come prepared.

I went to her side and apologized to her again, but Tan Rui smiled, the annoyance just now disappeared, which made me feel a little more at ease.

Tan Rui drove the black BMW and took me away. On the way, I asked her about our itinerary for today. Tan Rui said that we would visit Famen Temple first, then visit Qianling Mausoleum, Princess Yongtai’s Tomb, and Prince Yide’s Tomb, and return to the city in the afternoon to visit the Big Wild Goose Pagoda. If I have time, I will go there again forest of steles.

I saw Tan Rui driving a car skillfully, so I chatted with her about cars every now and then.

Tan Rui told me that she had obtained her driver's license two years ago. Because she works in the Logistics and Purchasing Federation of Shaanxi Province, the unit has a lot of cars, and she has the opportunity to touch cars. She is a beautiful woman, and the drivers in the unit are willing to serve her, vying to be her coach, so her driving skills improve rapidly. The black BMW she is driving now is the unit's car. It is a special car for the conference affairs group of the National Logistics Industry Development Symposium, and it is actually only for her use. Today's participants are free activities, so she and the car are free to accompany me to go sightseeing.

We started chatting about the car, but somehow it turned to Tan Rui's opinion of me.

Tan Rui asked me: Brother He, do you know why I chose your thesis as a topic of speech at the National Logistics Industry Development Symposium?

I don't know, it seems that you haven't told me. I answered her honestly.

I noticed you when you submitted your first article, because that issue of the magazine was co-edited by our organization and the magazine, and I was one of the editors of the magazine. I appreciate your insights and writing, and I contacted you specially, and asked for a photo of you to post in the author's profile of the magazine. You don't know that, do you? I didn't expect you to be such a handsome guy. After Tan Rui said this, she smiled secretly.

It turned out to be like this, no wonder she recognized me immediately when we met at the airport for the first time. At that time, she contacted me by email, so I didn't pay attention to who the editor was, and I never dreamed that the editor named Liberty Wind would be her. It seems that she has been paying attention to me for a long time.

For some reason, I didn't feel very happy. Instead, I felt that I had fallen into the trap of others early, and I felt a little unhappiness in my heart. It seems that Tan Rui is quite a scheming beauty, does she have any plans for me?

I hold backFeeling a little bit of unhappiness in his heart, he forced a smile to her.

Tan Rui didn't notice my abnormality, and she was still beaming and chatting with me endlessly, showing her affection for me without any scruples. Little did I know that the more she behaved like this, the more cautious I became.

Text Chapter 110: The Fierce Debate Under the Unlettered Tablet

When we visited Famen Temple, we were quite friendly, but when we visited the Qianling Mausoleum, we finally broke out because of our personal evaluation of Wu Zetian.

At that time, Tan Rui led me to visit the Qianling Mausoleum, and saw two huge stone tablets standing side by side in front of the mausoleum. The one on the west side is called Shusheng stele, and the one on the east side is Wu Zetian's wordless stele. Shusheng Stele is a stele erected by Empress Wu Zetian to praise Emperor Gaozong. She also personally wrote an inscription of more than 5,000 characters. On the east side is Wu Zetian's wordless stele. Since the Qin and Han Dynasties, all the emperors and generals hoped to erect a stele after their death, but there was no word engraved on the stone stele of the only female emperor in Chinese history.

Wu Zetian's wordless stele is carved from a complete huge stone, 7.53 meters high, 2.1 meters wide, 1.49 meters thick, and weighs 98.9 tons, giving people a dignified, solid and integrated aesthetic feeling. The title of the stele is not inscribed on the forehead, only the head of the stele is carved with eight chilongs, which are skillfully intertwined. This stele without characters has always been famous, attracting attention because of its prominent position, and is very popular for its exquisite carving art and legendary legends. When tourists come to the Qianling Mausoleum, they almost always stop in front of the stele without characters, or take pictures, or give pointers and comments. In the eyes of tourists, the wordless stele is not only a symbol of Qianling, but also a symbol of Empress Wu Zetian.

Standing in front of the stele, Tan Rui vividly told me the cause of this wordless stele:

Brother He, do you know why there are no words on the tablet without words? There are three kinds of views among the people. The first theory holds that Wu Zetian erected the stele without characters to boast of herself and to show that her meritorious deeds are too great to be expressed in words; The inscription on the inscription is good; the third argument holds that Wu Zetian was a self-aware person, and it was a smart move to erect a stele without words.

There is another saying that has come in recent years. During an inspection by the Shaanxi Institute of Cultural Relics, it was accidentally discovered that square grids were engraved from top to bottom on the sunny side of the wordless stele. After textual research, these were not engraved by later generations. Each of these square grids is 4 cm long and 5 cm wide, and they are neatly arranged. There is only one possibility, they were originally intended to be used for engraving on the stele, and the inscription has already been prepared. According to the calculation of the grid left on the surface of the stele, there are about 3,300 characters in the inscription. So why was the inscription already prepared not engraved on the stele?

Historians have speculated that Wu Zetian had written the inscription before his death and handed it to his son Li Xian. Wu Zetian dominated the situation for decades, but after the Shenlong coup, Wu Zetian was forced to abdicate to Li Xian, and the state name Zhou was restored to Tang. Although Li Xian was Wu Zetian's own son, he lived in fear for a long time. I couldn't vent my hatred, but I couldn't say good things to praise my mother, so I had no choice but to leave a wordless tablet for Wu Zetian.

Only after the Song and Jin Dynasties did tourists write inscriptions on the stele, so it became a stele with characters. However, most of the descendants have no attitude of respecting history, and lack a dialectical view of history. They only care about venting themselves, and they fiddle with words when they grab a place. The words on the back are engraved again, and the bed is built on top of the house, like a pot of paste. Unlike our contemporary people, they can have a correct view of history on Wu Zetian, so they can only provoke the ridicule of future generations.

I heard that Tan Rui seemed to have a good impression of Wu Zetian, and there was a bit of admiration in her words, and I couldn't help feeling even more unhappy. Because I have loved history very much since I was a child, and I know the historical deeds of the Li and Tang Dynasties very well. I admire the personal historical achievements of Tang Taizong Li Shimin, Tang Xuanzong Li Longji, Tang Xuanzong Li Chen, Tang Xianzong Li Chun, but only Wu Zetian But not much favor.

I deliberately asked her calmly: "Tan Rui, it seems that you admire Wu Zetian very much, isn't that so?" What's your opinion on the inscription?

Of course, Wu Zetian is the number one great woman among women in the five thousand years of Chinese civilization history. Under the patriarchal rule in ancient China for thousands of years, Wu Zetian was the only orthodox female emperor, the oldest emperor, and one of the longest-lived emperors, and she was also a female poet and politician , can be described as commendable.

Under her rule, the government was well-organized, the people were harmonious, the border troubles were calmed down, bold reforms were made in writing, emphasis was placed on the imperial examination, the opening of Zhike, employing people regardless of family status, stimulated the enthusiasm of ordinary people for reading and learning, and promoted the all-round development of culture. Wu Zetian himself is proficient in epic poetry and calligraphy, especially in Feibai script and cursive script. It is said in history that Wu Zetian's reign was the legacy of Zhenguan.

I agree with the fourth statement of the wordless stele. A great woman who has dominated the political arena for more than half a century could not escape her status as an accessory of patriarchy. This was a great sadness and injustice to Wu Zetian. The unwritten stele shows the deep helplessness of this great woman.

The great Chairman Mao once commented that Wu Zetian not only has the capacity to tolerate people, but also has the wisdom to understand people and the skill of employing people. Ms. Song Qingling, the widow of Mr. Zhongshan, once commented that Wu Zetian was an outstanding female politician in the feudal era. In terms of family roles, it is not difficult to see that Wu Zetian is also a good wife. Brother He, you should know about these deeds. Tan Rui praised Wu Zetian vigorously.

Listening to Tan Rui's words of shaking her lips and tongue,This ruthless, ambitious, and unrestrained generation of evildoer Wu Zetian worked hard to open his eyes, and I was even more upset. When Tan Rui mentioned that Ms. Soong Ching Ling commented that Wu Zetian was also a good wife, I finally couldn't hold back my laughter.

Hahaha... Can Wu Zetian be considered a good wife? Hahaha..., this is the first time I've heard of it. If Ms. Soong Ching Ling really commented in this way, then I can only say that she lacks a deep understanding and research on history, and she just took out of context and hearsay from the standpoint of a feminist!

Tan Rui showed a puzzled look at my attitude. From her face, it can be seen that she was obviously irritated by my ridicule: Brother He, Ms. Soong Ching Ling is an outstanding leader and figure of our contemporary women. How can you treat her like this? How about such blunt ridicule?

I have no ill feeling towards Ms. Soong Ching Ling, but I doubt that Ms. Soong Ching Ling would comment on Wu Zetian in this way, so instead of explaining my statement right away, I asked instead: Tan Rui, did Ms. Soong Ching Ling really comment on Wu Zetian like this?

Of course, do you think I will coax you? Tan Rui was very unhappy with my questioning. She got up and went to a Qianling souvenir shop, bought a copy of "The Biography of Wu Zetian", and found out the author's preface about Soong Ching Ling's evaluation of Wu Zetian, and pointed it out to me: Here , isn't it, am I talking nonsense without basis?

Text Chapter 111 Sudden suspicion

In fact, I don't need to read it to know that Tan Rui is right. Soong Ching Ling must have commented on Wu Zetian in this way, but I sneered at her comment on Wu Zetian.

I glanced at the book that Tan Rui handed me, put it together and handed it to Tan Rui, pointing to the wordless stele and said: Wu Zetian is indeed a politician and a strange woman, but her personality and I don't admire the cultivation base. I still agree with the two points of accepting advice and employing people, but I don't agree with saying that she is a good wife and woman. It just so happens that I pay more attention to her historical facts and know a thing or two, so I will tell you what I think of her.

Wu Zetian, a woman who usurped the throne in order to achieve her political ambitions, disregarded all ethics, and served two generations of fathers and sons and two generations of kings, which can be described as unethical;

In order to seize the queen's position, she strangled her infant daughter to death with her own hands and blamed the queen, which caused the queen to be deposed. After seizing the queen's position, she brutally murdered the queen and concubine Xiao Shu. The cruelty of human beings is rare in the world, and it can be called inhumane;

Tang Gaozong's first prince, Li Zhong, was not born to Wu Zetian, but was deposed and killed by her bewitching Tang Gaozong. She made her son Li Hong the crown prince, and was poisoned to death by her because the prince was incompatible with her. The second son, Li Xian, was unwilling to be the mother's puppet. After being made the crown prince, he was deposed by his mother and forced to commit suicide. Wu Zetian's other two sons, Li Xian and Li Dan, saw their mother like a mouse seeing a cat, and they had no mother-child relationship at all. Even so, the two brothers were still deposed and exiled by Wu Zetian, and could only wait obediently to die. Empress Wu Zetian's granddaughter, Princess Yongtai, was ordered to be executed for discussing with her husband Wu Yanji and the emperor's brother Li Chongrun to meet Zhang Yizhi and Zhang Changzong brothers. These can be said to be not close;

In order to consolidate her personal status, Wu Zetian used the banner of Li Tang's court to eliminate dissidents. In order to remove the obstacles to proclaiming the emperor, she indiscriminately killed the clan and noble relatives of the Tang Dynasty. Hundreds of nobles and relatives of the Tang clan were killed, and hundreds of ministers were harmed. It made everyone in the Tang clan feel insecure and indignant. Her viciousness, cruelty and ruthlessness filled her with a bloody and terrifying political atmosphere during her reign, which can be described as injustice;

She appointed cruel officials Lai Junchen, Zhou Xing and others to kill innocent people indiscriminately, and implemented a terrifying policy of reporting and indiscriminate punishment. Even Di Renjie, a generation of famous officials, was almost slaughtered. She cultivated party members and established court treacherous party groups. Especially in the later period of her reign, court politics became increasingly corrupt, forming a group of new privileged nobles who were connived and supported by Wu Zetian. From this point of view, she is unjust;

Wu Zetian hated her two older brothers, so she planned to kill Wu Yuanqing and Wu Yuanshuang brothers. Jealous of her sister being favored by Tang Gaozong, she forced her to commit suicide, and then poisoned her niece, Mrs. Wei Guo. She killed her relatives indiscriminately, and she was still criticized after thousands of years, which can be called disrespectful;

Wu Zetian was very strong. Soon after Gaozong's death, Wu Zetian had her first male favorite, Feng Xiaobao. Feng Xiaobao offended Wu Zetian because of his willfulness, and was finally killed secretly. The brothers Xue Aocao, Zhang Yizhi, and Zhang Changzong rose rapidly and became Wu Zetian's new favorites. In her twilight years, Wu Zetian was sick and unable to go to court for a long time, and her control over the government declined. She regarded the two brothers as her eyes and ears. The two Zhang brothers gradually intervened in the government, framed Zhongliang, forced the minister to launch a coup, and forced her to step down. Only in this way did the regime return to the Li and Tang Dynasty, and the later Kaiyuan flourished. From this point of view, she is shameless.

Wu Zetian became a nun and became a nun. After she ascended the throne, she overhauled palaces and Buddhist temples and took the opportunity to show off. At the age of 70, in order to commend herself, she built a large-scale construction project in Luoyang and spent tens of billions to build the eulogized Tianshu. For this reason, she melted down 27,000 coins in circulation, consuming more than a quarter of the country's financial resources at that time. She also ordered the casting of Kyushu bronze tripods and the twelve zodiac animals and placed them in Tongtian Palace. Some scholars believe that because of Wu Zetian's image engineering temples, which cost people and money, the heyday of the Tang Dynasty was delayed by 30 to 50 years compared with the Han, Ming, and Qing Dynasties. This shows her arrogance and luxury;

During Wu Zetian's reign, the four towns of Anxi were lost, which endangered the unity of the country. The Anton Governor's Mansion was withdrawn from Pyongyang to Liaodong twice. The Han officials in the old Goguryeo area basically withdrew, and Silla became bigger and bigger, and the Tang Dynasty was beyond its capabilities. As Tubo became stronger day by day, the Tang Dynasty could only dare not send troops under the pretext of having no good generals. Li Jinzhong, governor of Khitan Songmo, rebelled again.When Zhou sent troops, the whole army was wiped out. Afterwards, the Turkic Mo Chuai took advantage of the situation again, causing the Wu Zhou Dynasty to be devastated. I really don't see what's so special about her martial arts. It's just that Emperor Taizong of Taiping's Zhenguan rule has lasted for a long time, leaving her with a great economic, political foundation and talent pool. Why should these historical achievements be counted on her head?

As soon as my long speech finished, Tan Rui immediately began to refute: Brother He, Wu Zetian is very unbearable in your mouth. Then why do many emperors and great men like Chairman Mao and Soong Ching Ling in later generations praise Wu Zetian? Well-known scholars such as Guo Moruo and Jian Bozan also want to sing her praises? TV series about her have been filmed one after another, so it doesn't mean that these people are all fools, idiots or careerists with other purposes.

It is not surprising that as a ruler, in order to achieve his personal goals, he must artificially elevate Wu Zetian, and justify some of their behaviors similar to Wu Zetian, so there are some shameless literati who wave the flag and shout for their masters, such as Guo Moruo Mr. Lu Xun once unceremoniously commented on Guo Moruo as a rogue Jiawen. Historians Lu Simian, Cen Zhongmian, Xiong Deji and others held a negative attitude towards Wu Zetian, believing that her coming to power was a reversal of history and a complete retrogression.

As for some film and television literary works, they are taken out of context and willfully distort historical facts. In order to create some gimmicks and attractions, Wu Zetian was artificially exalted, tampered with history, and forcibly beautified the characters' shortcomings into advantages. The most ridiculous thing is to beautify Wu Zetian's dirty harem into a light comedy of love. It is really ridiculous and lamentable. What I said made Tan Rui speechless for a while. Her face was flushed, and she opened her small mouth a few times, but said nothing.

I went on to say angrily: Wu Zetian is a cruel, sinister, cruel, selfish, bloody, jealous, authoritarian, and desolate person. He killed brothers and nephews, and poisoned sons and daughters. In order to achieve her own political ambitions, she will do everything possible. She is a woman of extremely despicable qualities. How can such a woman be called a great woman, a good wife, and a good mother? I really don't know if the virtues of kindness, gentleness, and virtuousness of your women have ever been reflected in her.

Tan Rui immediately refuted me: I feel that you are very unfair to Wu Zetian. Your thinking is the patriarchal thinking and orthodox thinking that has been decadent and declining for thousands of years, which does not conform to the trend of the times at all. From what you said, I feel that you have a deep personal prejudice against women. I don't know how much you have been hurt by women, which contributed to your extreme thinking, words and deeds today.

Tan Rui, maybe my evaluation of Wu Zetian is not objective, but I can't erase Wu Zetian's shortcomings because of that, there is history to rely on. I have no prejudice against women. On the contrary, I respect women very much. I love my grandmother, mother and sister, care and love female colleagues, and oppose domestic violence against women. Tan Rui, I know you are a good girl. A woman like Wu Zetian is not worthy of being your idol. You should learn about history, improve your ability to distinguish, and know what is good and what is bad, so as not to suffer yourself fooled. I have a pun in the following sentence, alluding to her boss, Director Zhang.

Tan Rui finally pulled her face down, turned her back to me and said: I like Wu Zetian, it's none of your business. What does it have to do with you if I suffer a loss and be deceived, do I need you to teach me!

I know that my words have gone too far and angered Tan Rui, and I have nothing to say for a while, but I am very disgusted with Tan Rui's words with a woman's temper.

The good relationship between the two of us came to an abrupt end, and a rift had already arisen in our respective hearts. I also felt that I had made a bit of a slip of the tongue today. Being contradicted by Tan Rui's words, I felt a little embarrassing, and I couldn't hold back my face.

We stopped talking to each other and walked around the scenic spots in Qianling. We didn't have the mind and interest to visit the tomb of Princess Yongtai and Prince Yide, and we didn't have lunch at the scenic spots, so we went back home. I used the excuse that I was going to the streets in the afternoon to buy some souvenirs to take back, so I didn't want to go to the Big Wild Goose Pagoda and the Forest of Steles.

It was nearly two o'clock in the afternoon when we returned to the hotel. When Tan Rui said goodbye to me, she probably felt that her words were a little too much, so she took the initiative to invite me to eat out, but I politely declined.

She looked at me and said with an unnatural expression: Brother He, you won't turn against me because of Wu Zetian, will you? When she said this, her eyes were already tearing up, and she had a lovely and pitiful expression.

I also felt a little bit unbearable, but the fact is already the case, so I could only lower my head and say: "How come, I also have some... some rude words, please forgive me, I hope you... I hope you don't forget it in your heart."

I bid farewell to the ancient capital Xi'an in the morning of the second day and returned to Hangzhou by plane. I took the special car assigned by the conference affairs group to Xianyang Airport, and the driver was of course not Tan Rui. When I was about to leave the Chang'an Yaji Hotel where I was staying in the car, I turned my head and took a last look at the window of the conference affairs group, but I didn't see Tan Rui.

On the day after returning to Hangzhou, I went to work at my unit and gave Tu Xiaofeng and Yang Yuanqing some of the Xi'an specialties I brought back. I also gave my assistant Chen Zhaohui and other staff a few Xi'an souvenirs.

On the morning of the second day after work, I suddenly received a call from Zhao Jianxin. Zhao Jianxin told me on the phone that the reason why he left Xi'an in a hurry was not to go back to Nanjing, but to fly to Shenzhen to meet Shen Ying. He told me about their meeting without reservation.

Text Chapter 112 Goodbye Shen Ying

Brother He, your earnest persuasion had a great psychological impact on me. After lying down, I had trouble falling asleep. I am in the morningAfter tossing and turning on the bed for a long time, he finally decided to go find Shen Ying. I think only when we meet each other can we get rid of each other's knots, and I hope we can smile away our grievances.

I didn't know Shen Ying's exact contact information, so I called Li Binxu at noon the next day. Li Binxu refused to give it to me at first, but he couldn't hold back my obsession, and finally gave me Shen Ying's cell phone number. At the same time, I also learned that Shen Ying and her current husband have left Guangzhou to settle in Shenzhen, and they already have a daughter who is about 3 months old.

Because I knew Shen Ying's current situation, I hesitated, and the problem of seeing or not was placed in front of me again. I thought about it again and again, and decided to meet her. I wanted to settle all the old accounts before Wenwen and I got married, so that I could start a new life easily and without any burdens. Now is the time to open my heart and see Shen Ying. it's time. I booked a plane ticket to Shenzhen that night in the conference affairs team, and then I went back to the room where I was staying to rest with confidence.

In the evening I flew to Shenzhen and stayed in a hotel in Shenzhen. Due to the exhaustion of the journey and the gradual disappearance of the block in my heart, I actually slept comfortably for a long time. When I woke up the next day, it was already past 10 am.

After washing up, I stood up and picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table, found Shen Ying's phone number, and pressed the dial button without thinking...

The phone rang for a while before a female voice that was both familiar and unfamiliar sounded. It's a pity that for some reason, this voice is not as sweet as before, but rather hoarse and tired. Its owner is Shen Ying.

Shen Ying asked impatiently on the phone: Who are you, and who are you looking for?

Nearly two years later, when I heard Shen Ying's voice again, my brain went blank for an instant. I didn't know what to say while holding the phone. I wanted to say something, but I couldn't say it. When I was panicking and anxious, Shen Ying's other end hung up.

I sat down, thought for a while, and dialed Shen Ying's cell phone again. I didn't wait for Shen Ying to ask me, I opened my mouth first: Excuse me, are you Shen Ying?

I'm Shen Ying, I connected to your call just now, but you didn't make a sound, so I thought it was... Shen Ying politely wanted to explain something on the phone, but was interrupted by my words.

I'm Zhao Jianxin, how are you, Shen Ying? I said calmly.

I suddenly heard a crackling sound from the phone, but fortunately, the communication was not interrupted. After a while, Shen Ying's voice came again.

Are you... Jianxin? Are you really Jianxin? Shen Ying didn't seem to believe it was me, her voice was a little hesitant and dignified.

That's right, I'm Zhao Jianxin, I'm in Shenzhen now, and I want to meet you.

Why do you want to see me, do you have something urgent? Shen Ying asked with some concern.

I came to see you without any malice, please trust me, okay? I don't have any official business in Shenzhen, but I came here specially to see you. I think we haven't seen each other for more than two years, and we haven't talked for nearly two years. I want to chat with you. Do you have time?

In the end, Shen Ying and I agreed to meet in a cafe in the city at 2:30 in the afternoon, and we will see each other then.

At 2:15 in the afternoon, I came to this cafe and chose a private room facing the window, from which I could enjoy the street view outside. I ordered a pot of Mamba coffee and ordered two desserts before I poured myself a cup of coffee and started to sip slowly. Aromatic, robust and flavorful, Mamba is a blend of Mandheling and Brazilian coffee, which are the perfect coffee match. This type of coffee was my favorite when Shen Ying and I were dating. At that time, we liked to drink coffee and dessert, looking forward to our future work and life.

Around 2:25, I received a call from Shen Ying. She has come here, but she doesn't know where I am. I hurriedly told her about the elegant room number, and waited for a while before seeing her coming. After thinking about it, I decided to take the initiative to greet her. Just as I was about to get up, the private room door creaked open, and Shen Ying appeared in front of me.

I stood up involuntarily, looked at my watch subconsciously, and found that the time was exactly 2:30.

I saw Shen Ying, I saw the person I hated and loved in the past two years, and I saw the person who made me sad, hopeless and worried. But at that moment, all the sadness and pain disappeared in my heart, and there was only a sense of a world away, which made me feel sad and anxious.

Shen Ying also stood motionless at the door, she looked at me with wide eyes, her expression was sad and happy, it was hard to describe.

I saw that Shen Ying seemed to be getting fatter. Her short hair dyed red ketone color was clean and neat. Although it was not thick, it created a fluffy feeling, which further brought out her fair skin. She was wearing a long white hand-knitted sweater, casual and casual, showing a strong femininity. A purple bottoming shirt was casually matched inside, because she was breastfeeding, her breasts protruded high, and her chest looked sexy and mature. Wearing a pair of tailored black trousers and a pair of black wedge-heeled shoes, she highlighted her graceful figure. Her overall attire is simple yet elegant, making her look as beautiful and dignified as before, with a pleasant temperament.

She still pays so much attention to dressing, which shows that her daily life is very rich and comfortable.

Shen Ying saw that I was looking her up and down intently, her fair and pink cheeks were a little red, but she was no longer as shy as before.

I hurriedly greeted Shen Ying to sit across from me, and poured her a cup of fragrance.Fragrant coffee mamba.

Neither she nor I rushed to speak, we just continued to sit quietly and examine each other. I tried to find the traces of her past in my memory, but that memory seemed distant and deep at this moment, even a little annihilated and blurred.

Jianxin, you look much older, you have wrinkles on your forehead, and you seem to have gray hair on your temples. Shen Ying looked at me and said slowly.

Yes, I am 31 years old this year. I have passed my thirties, and I am no longer the vigorous young man I was when I fell in love with you. I said with emotion.

Shen Ying stared into my eyes and said softly: Jianxin, I think you have suffered a lot in the past two years. Before I came, I talked to my cousin. I think you have my mobile phone number, which can only be obtained through him. I asked him about your situation by the way, and I knew that you had been hurt physically and mentally because of me... because of me, and had experienced many setbacks. Of course, I also know that you once wanted to find me back, but unfortunately I was... already married to my current husband...

Text Chapter 113 A Belated Apology

I didn't want her to go on talking, so I greeted her to drink coffee first.

Out of politeness, Shen Ying took a sip of her coffee and continued to stare at me.

Jianxin, can you tell me about your recent situation? I really want to know about you. she asked me cautiously.

I didn't know where to start, so I briefly told her about Xiao Zhou and me, from how we met to how we were getting married soon. Of course, in order not to touch her sad past, I kept silent about the fact that I was buying a house and renovating it again, but Shen Ying took the initiative to ask me this way.

Jianxin, our old home was a bit small, haven't you considered buying a big house to marry Xiao Zhou? Listen to what you said, Xiao Zhou is a kind-hearted and caring girl, you can't wrong her.

Shen Ying, didn't you like to have long hair in the past, why did you cut it short? I hurriedly changed the subject, fearing that the matter of buying a house and decorating would irritate her again.

I was afraid that my daughter would mess with my hair and mess with the little guy every day. I was busy and tired, and I didn't care about grooming and grooming. Keeping short hair saved a lot of trouble. When Shen Ying talked about her daughter, her face was filled with maternal tenderness. At that moment, I thought she was really beautiful.

Do you have a picture of your daughter on your phone? Oh, do you have a picture of your husband? I couldn't hold back my curiosity, so I took the initiative to ask Shen Ying for photos of her family.

Shen Ying took out her iPhone, fiddled with it for a while, and handed her phone to me across the table.

I took a look and saw a very beautiful photo of a little baby girl on the big screen phone. Her face shape, eyebrows, and nose were exactly like Shen Ying, but her ears and lips were not like Shen Ying. I guess she should be like Shen Ying's husband. I looked back and saw a picture of Shen Ying holding her child with her husband. They all had happy and satisfied smiles on their faces, and the family was happy.

Shen Ying's husband has a broad forehead and big eyes, with gold-rimmed eyes and a rich face, but he looks very quiet and cultivated. Sure enough, the baby girl's thin lips and ingot-shaped ears were very similar to her father's. Her face gathered the advantages of her parents' looks, and she must be a beauty that will fascinate boys when she grows up.

After looking through a few more photos, I handed the phone back to Shen Ying.

Shen Ying took the initiative to tell me that her husband is a doctor, and now works in a city hospital in Shenzhen City. He is the chief physician and a well-known venereal disease expert. I am happy from the bottom of my heart that Shen Ying can find a good home and get a good result. Of course, there is also some sadness in my heart.

I teased her and said: Shen Ying, I haven't seen you for more than two years, and I found that you have changed a lot and you have become mature. In the past, you must have been late for the appointment, but today you are on time for the appointment, and it feels like you have lost the arrogance of the past.

The lifestyle of Shenzhen people is fast-paced, and you must be on time when meeting people, otherwise you will be looked down upon. Of course, we've all been through that, and we've all changed a lot. Shen Ying spoke unhurriedly.

Shen Ying, tell me about your experience after we parted. Although I have inquired about some things about you from some channels, but only a few words, I can't understand the whole picture, can I? I also took the initiative to ask about Shen Ying's past.

Shen Ying hesitated for a moment, then told me her personal experience after the divorce with a sad face.

I said goodbye to my cousin's family on the third day after the divorce, and went south to Shenzhen to seek a new start. Although I was reluctant to let go of my work and life in Nanjing, I had no choice. I wanted to get rid of the shadow of the past and the entanglement of Lai Jun. When I left Nanjing, I didn't have much money with me, and I was too embarrassed to ask my cousin's family to borrow it, let alone my parents. I came to the unaccompanied Shenzhen in despair, and rented a cheap basement. Going to work during the day, staying alone in the dark and damp basement at night, often crying to sleep and waking up.

It is not difficult to find a job with my academic qualifications, but the person in charge of recruiting values ​​my work experience more. When people ask me where I worked, it often makes me angry, because I don't want them to know my work experience at Nanjing Siemens. I was afraid that they would investigate me and that they would know about my past, so I could only shake my head and say that I had no work experience. In the end, I reluctantly found a foreign-funded company, and the salary was not high, so I could only start as an ordinary employee. Fortunately, my ability was quickly demonstrated, and I was valued by the department leaders and entrusted with important tasks. My salary also rose rapidly, and my work and life gradually improved.

I later rented a roomA small room with slightly improved living conditions. I bury my head in my work during the day and concentrate on nothing else. At night, when I am alone at home, I can’t stop thinking about the past and the happiness I once had. Jianxin, do you know that I missed you so much at that time, and often dreamed that I was with you again in my dreams. I still hope in my heart that you can change your mind and come to me again. But reason tells me that it is impossible for me and you to get together again. Because what I said when we divorced must have hurt you deeply, and you will not forgive me. Can you understand why I said that when we broke up, Jianxin?

I looked into her eyes and said slowly: I hated you at first when you said he was better than you, but when I calmed down later, I recalled your expression when you said these words, and your expression after I laughed out loud. In the scene of hiding your face and crying and running away, under the persuasion of others, I think I may understand what you mean. You want to deliberately make me hate you, let me be unfeeling to you, and finally forget you, is that right? If I hadn't figured this out, I don't think I would have come to see you today.

I saw Shen Ying's eye sockets turn red all of a sudden, tears gradually drowned her shiny black eyes, two lines of clear tears finally couldn't help but flow down. Shen Ying covered her face with her hands, her shoulders were shaking, she was crying silently.

I got up and walked around the table, sat in the chair next to her, patted her on the shoulder, and wanted to say something comforting, but my throat was blocked and I was speechless for a while.

Shen Ying raised her teary eyes, saw me sitting beside her, hesitated for a moment, then plunged into my arms, and burst into tears. I took her into my arms and hugged this delicate body that I was familiar with in the past with both hands. I was filled with emotion and regret.

Shen Ying fell into my arms and cried and said: Jianxin, I'm sorry, I'm really... sorry for you. I don't say this to get... your forgiveness, but I really want to use it to express my... my apologies to you, but it's a pity that I'm sorry... I said it too late!

When the proud Shen Ying cried and said sorry to me like this in the past, my tears finally couldn't hold back and flowed down silently, because this sorry came too late, everything is irreparable, and we can only leave us empty-handed. leave regret...

Text Chapter 114: The Helpless Truth

Shen Ying cried for a long time before trying to suppress her crying, so I sat back in my original seat and faced her again.

With red and swollen eyes, Shen Ying picked up her mobile phone again, pulled out a recording and handed it to me.

I looked at the information of this recording and found that it was created at 11:38 p.m. on July 2, 2007, so it has existed for more than two years, but what is this recording about? It aroused my curiosity. I clicked play, and Shen Ying's unique low and mournful voice came from the phone, but it was different from Shen Ying's hoarse voice now.

Jianxin, if we are destined, you will hear this recording, but I think you may not hear this recording in your life, woo woo...I know you hate my relationship with Lai Jun, so you can't listen to it Go into any of my explanations, and of course my stupid way of forcing you to divorce me in the first place has chilled your heart. Tonight, you asked me to sue Lai Jun to prove that I have no relationship with him, but I am from your proposal to let my cousin or cousin accompany me to the police station to report the crime, and if it is not possible, then I will In the words of trying to embarrass myself to accompany you, I feel that you don't want to save our marriage at all, but you just want to test my reaction.

Even if I call the police and Lai Jun is punished, I don't think you will continue to live with me. You think that I have humiliated you and that your efforts have not been truly rewarded, so you hold a grudge against me and will never forgive me easily. I also understand that after the divorce, when everything clears up, you may calm down, come to your senses, and change your mind about me. But I know you too well, and I don't want you to wear a shameful green hat all your life and live in the cold eyes and ridicule of others just to love me and pity me. I hope you can live happily in the future, and live happily without me, even if I repay you for what you have done to me for many years.

Our feelings were lost when we confronted each other tonight. I don't expect you to change your mind so quickly. Maybe divorce is the best choice. You don't have to worry about wearing a cuckold anymore, I will let you get a complete relief, because this is an irreparable big mistake caused by my stupidity and selfishness. I hope you can forget everything about me as soon as possible, clean up your mood and start your life again.

In order to achieve this goal, tomorrow I may say something that will break your heart, or even do something that will make you extremely angry. You will hate me for my words and my actions, but it will also make you forget me faster, which is the last thing I can do to help you. Although this incident will hurt you deeply, you will never forgive me in this life.

Forgive me, Jianxin, I really don't want to hurt you, but that won't help you. Only by continuing to hurt you can I help you. It's a pity that you will never understand my painstaking efforts, but I think it is worth it.

The recording ended here, only a few minutes. But these few minutes have verified that my conjecture inspired by you, Brother He, is correct, and also proved how stupid and narrow-minded I was in the past. But I remember that Shen Ying only said that heart-wrenching sentence to me at that time, and did not do anything that made me extremely angry. I raised my head and looked puzzled at Shen Ying who was still weeping.

Shen Ying wiped the tears off her face with the back of her hand, and said with a choked voice: Jianxin, you want to ask me that day... what am I going to do to make you extremely angry? Thatphoto. Shocked, Shen Ying ran out of her rented hut, went to a public phone booth not far from her home, called Lai Jun, and accused Lai Jun of dishonestly posting her nude photos on the Internet.

Of course, Lai Jun tried her best to deny her on the phone, making Shen Ying very angry, but she did not expect that a few days later, Lai Jun came to Shenzhen to find her according to that number, and took the opportunity to blackmail her. At that time, Shen Ying didn't have much money at all, but Shen Ying, who used to dress and dress up with taste, lived an extremely simple life in Shenzhen, just to save some money to make ends meet. Moreover, Shen Ying often felt unwell, with sore waist and legs, so she went to the hospital for a checkup, only to find out that she had a serious venereal disease, and the treatment of venereal disease also required a lot of expense. Lai Jun asked Shen Ying to pay 100,000 yuan to buy back his videos and photos, so Shen Ying had to bargain with him and agreed on 80,000 yuan.

Shen Ying was forced to call me for help in a public phone booth, but I flatly refused her. She was very upset and called my mother in a fit of anger. She told the truth about our divorce on the phone, but she didn't say anything excessive to vent her anger. But when she heard that there was something wrong with her mother, she pressed the phone. She couldn't afford to pay Lai Jun, so she had to turn off the phone and hide.

A few days later, when she turned on her phone, she received a series of text messages. My cousin sent her a text message, and she knew that her father was nearly killed by my words, and my mother almost died of a heart attack after learning the truth about our divorce; Lai Jun also sent text messages to threaten him Come out and meet.

Shen Ying finally woke up, that bastard Lai Jun would not let her go, she needed to stand up and face it bravely. She didn't have much money on hand, but in order to confuse Lai Jun, she had no choice but to pawn off her most cherished items, and only managed to scrape together 30,000 yuan. After meeting Lai Jun in the teahouse, while Lai Jun was counting money, she took out a sharp meat-cutting dagger and risked her life to fight Lai Jun. Unexpectedly, Lai Jun only had the power to parry and had no power to fight back, so he could only run away.

Shen Ying took the money and the knife and fled to Guangzhou to hide that day. She had already made the worst plan. No matter who the police or Lai Jun came to the door, she would use that dagger to end her life. This person lived on in this world, and he had no face to see his parents. She hid in the hotel all day, washed her face with tears, picked up a knife several times and tried to commit suicide by cutting her wrists. But the strange thing is that after more than ten days, neither the police nor Lai Jun came to the door. She used her laptop to browse the Internet, only to find that the pictures posted by Lai Jun had also been deleted, which made her a little baffled.

Feeling that her health was deteriorating, she rented a house in Guangzhou, and started seeing a doctor with the money she got from buying items, and met her current husband, Dr. Fang. Shen Ying knew at that time that the relationship between her and me was completely irretrievable, and she had no hope for life. She only thought about going to see her family to apologize and admit her mistakes after being cured of sexually transmitted diseases, and then find a secluded place to settle the matter completely and intact. own life.

It may be that her mental state was really bad at that time, and she had no intention of hiding her emotions. Sadness and despair almost swallowed her vitality and vitality. Her haggard face and desperate expression were seen by Dr. Fang. This kind middle-aged man took the initiative to warn her to change her mental state so that she could cooperate with the treatment and recover as soon as possible. Her venereal disease is not incurable. But if it is not cured, the light one will be infertile for life, and the severe one will lose his life.

Even after understanding the serious consequences, Shen Ying still couldn't cheer up. The money in her hands is getting less and less, not to mention medical treatment, even accommodation and food are becoming problems, so she had to give up medical treatment, and planned to spend the remaining little money to endure her last years. At this time, she didn't even care about her own completeness, she just wanted to end her miserable fate after spending this little money.

Hearing this, my heart was pierced. The tragic experience of Shen Ying in Shenzhen and Guangzhou made me hate my heartlessness and cruelty. It was me and Lai Jun who forced her into a miserable situation. In this regard, I Don't need Lai Jun how much better! I thought that after the divorce, I was the only one who suffered physically and mentally, but I didn't know that Shen Ying was in a worse situation than me.

Text Chapter 116: Things Are Different

I lowered my forehead and pressed against Shen Ying's soft hands, not daring to look up at her, tears dripping down on her catkins.

Shen Ying raised my head, cried and said, "Jianxin, you are so cruel...why didn't you come to me at that time?" I'm almost no longer in this world, I thought my life could only stay in... the early spring of 2008, and I didn't dare to go back to my parents' house during the Chinese New Year. Won't you come then? She finally couldn't restrain the grief in her heart, hugged me and cried loudly, her hand still beating my back.

I also hugged Shen Ying and exchanged tears, heartbroken. The two of us who used to love each other sincerely, but because of the appearance of this bastard Lai Jun, we were driven into exile and turned against each other. Now, although we each have a good home, we have become different, and we can only leave nothing but grudges for life. .

Shen Ying and I hugged each other and cried for a long time before we stopped crying and continued to listen to her talk about her miserable experience in Guangzhou.

One day at the end of February, Shen Ying finally spent all her money, she decided to go to a place with few people and drown herself. She was fully dressed that day, and on a cold and desolate morning, she came to Shuangqiao Park alone, heartbroken and lost, and found a lake that was almost deserted, and jumped into it with her eyes closed.

As soon as she fell into the water, she was seen by passers-by exercising by the lake. A middle-aged man jumped into the lake and rescued her. This man is her current husband.Doctor Husband. Believe it or not, it was Dr. Fang who saved Shen Ying's life when she was at the end of her life, and Dr. Fang happened to recognize her.

Dr. Fang rescued Shen Ying, sent her to the hospital where she was, and patiently persuaded Shen Ying not to give up her life. She hadn't reached the end of her life yet. Shen Ying also came to her senses after going through a life-and-death situation. She felt that she was really confused at the time, and what she did was sorry for her loving parents and relatives, so she calmed down and told Dr. Fang about her miserable experience in tears.

Dr. Fang sympathized with her very much and offered to treat Shen Ying for venereal diseases free of charge, and took her to her widowed mother's house, allowing the impoverished Shen Ying to be with her mother, and solved Shen Ying's food and housing problems. When Shen Ying was in despair, Dr. Fang came to rescue her, arranged her life well, and treated her illness. Of course, the other doctor was grateful.

After three months of treatment, Shen Ying's sexually transmitted diseases were quickly cured, and her body and mind also recovered greatly. After many contacts with Dr. Fang, she learned that Dr. Fang was also a divorced person. The reason for the divorce was that Dr. Fang had an affair with a female colleague who admired him. She was discovered by his wife, and after a big fight, the two separated. . Dr. Fang regretted his betrayal and asked his ex-wife several times to get back together, but his ex-wife was stubborn and refused to forgive him. Coupled with the fact that his ex-wife was infertile and the two had no children, Dr. Fang gradually became cold-hearted and lost hope for marriage. He was single for 5 years and remained unmarried. Because he also had an affair experience, and the two of them shared the same illness, so he understood and sympathized with Shen Ying's past.

Fang's mother saw that Shen Ying was beautiful, kind-hearted, knew how to repay her kindness, and was highly educated, and saw that her son and Shen Ying had a good chat, so she deliberately matched her 38-year-old son with Shen Ying. Sun is eager. Dr. Fang also had a crush on Shen Ying, so with the help of his mother, he proposed to Shen Ying.

At that time, Shen Ying was very grateful to Dr. Fang, and she also had a good impression of her. Considering that she was a dying woman, and she was completely desperate for me, although Dr. Fang was nine years older than her, she was not very satisfied, but she still thought about it several times. Days later, she finally agreed to Dr. Fang's marriage proposal. After marriage, Dr. Fang showed great concern for Shen Ying, knew how to care and tolerate Shen Ying, and made Shen Ying feel the warmth of family and the care of her lover again, so she was also very satisfied with Dr. Fang. Shen Ying has experienced those ups and downs and setbacks, and she has become more mature and sensible, and she cherishes this hard-won happiness even more.

They got married in June 2008. At that time, I probably only saw the video Lai Jun sent me, and I was still in hesitation. When I came to my senses and eagerly found Li Binxu's contact information for Shen Ying, she was married a few days ago and flew to the Maldives with her newlywed husband for honeymoon. Shen Ying and I made a mistake like this, and lost the chance to get back together.

After marriage, Shen Ying applied for a job again and found a suitable job in Shenzhen. Dr. Fang moved her family to Shenzhen to love his wife. In June this year, Shen Ying successfully gave birth to a daughter, which made the Fang family ecstatic. After giving birth, Shen Ying loved her daughter dearly and worked tirelessly to take care of the child herself, not willing to leave it to the nanny. Although it is hard and tiring every day, it is also fun. This time I asked her out to meet, because her husband was at work, so she had no choice but to hand over the child to the care of her mother-in-law who lived with her.

After listening to Shen Ying's narration, I was not only happy that she had found a happy home, but also lamented my bad luck, and was sad because I couldn't save my marriage with Shen Ying with my own hands. I couldn't help crying and said to Shen Ying again: Shen Ying, I really didn't know that you were so miserable and hopeless at that time, I am really sorry for you, I failed you too much...

Jianxin, you don't have to blame yourself, it's probably all due to fate. I have one more thing for you today, do you know what it is? Shen Ying changed the subject.

I looked at Shen Ying with tears in my eyes, feeling sad and disturbed. I had no intention of guessing what she would bring to me, so I shook my head at her to show that I didn't want to guess.

Shen Ying took out a beautifully packaged brocade box from her satchel and pushed it in front of me. I opened it, and it turned out that it was the amethyst and diamond necklace that my aunt gave Shen Ying when I married Shen Ying. It was lying quietly in the brocade box, still shining brightly.

Jianxin, I keep it with me all the time. Please forgive me for not leaving you with me during the divorce, because I secretly hope that we can get back together. When I was poor and penniless, I had no choice but to pawn it for 30,000 yuan and survived for a while. Without it, I might not be alive long ago. After I got married later, I bought it back at a high price. I look forward to the day when I can hand it back to you with my own hands. It belongs to your family. I hope you can wear it around your fiancée's neck. I wish you a happy union for a hundred years, and sincerely hope that my tragedy will not happen again. Shen Ying looked into my eyes and sincerely expressed her wishes.

I closed the brocade box, pushed it to Shen Ying, and said with a sob: "Shen Ying, this was originally given to you by my aunt, and it should belong to you in the first place."

Shen Ying pushed it to me again and said: Jianxin, I understand what you mean, but I hope it belongs to your wife. Just accept it, even if it is my wedding present to you. To be honest, I'm really looking forward to being able to attend your wedding with Xiao Zhou, you won't... you won't refuse me to kiss you at the scene, right?

No, even though you are not my wife now, in my heart, you are still my family. I cried and said these helpless words from the bottom of my heart to Shen Ying.

Shen Ying was moved by my words and started to cry again. The two of us almost shed tears all afternoon, but can tears wash away the regret and loss in my heart?

Text HundredthChapter Seventeen Lost My Love

I took out the photo of Shen Ying from my wallet and handed it to Shen Ying. While wiping her tears, Shen Ying choked up and said: Jianxin, why do you still carry my photo with you? Aren't you afraid that Xiao Zhou will be paranoid when he sees it? You still haven't forgotten me. It seems that I thought everything wrong at the beginning. I regret the self-righteous stupid decision I made before the divorce, which not only harmed you, but also harmed myself.

I tried my best to comfort Shen Ying, I didn't want to make her too sad, after all, she is a mother. I have heard that the bad emotions of breastfeeding mothers can lead to insufficient milk for the mother, which will affect the breastfeeding of the child.

With tears in her eyes, Shen Ying asked me for Xiao Zhou's photo, and she felt that I would definitely carry Xiao Zhou's photo with me. I handed her the photo of me and Xiao Zhou without hesitation. She carefully looked at the group photo of me and Xiao Zhou, and praised Xiao Zhou for being a beautiful and kind girl, and Xiao Zhou and I would definitely live a happy life.

After Shen Ying saw the group photo of me and Xiao Zhou, she handed it back to me, but refused to return my portrait photo of her. She said to me seriously: Jianxin, I don't have this photo of mine yet, so please leave it to me. This is the photo I am most satisfied with, how many memories of our past are left in it. You should prepare a photo of Xiao Zhou and take it with you, cherish your current lover.

I knew the true meaning of Shen Ying's words, so I stopped embarrassing her and watched her tear up and put away the photos.

Shen Ying asked about my mother's recent situation. I said that my mother had been thinking about her all the time, and that she had long since forgiven Shen Ying for her mistakes. She once blamed me for my mistakes and urged me to find her as soon as possible, but unfortunately I was one step too late.

Shen Ying said sadly: Mom is really a kind and generous mother, but unfortunately I can no longer be her daughter-in-law, to repay her love for me back then, and hope that I can become her daughter. In August, I anonymously sent two old Northeast ginseng to my mother, hoping that it would be of some use to her body.

I remembered that my mother had asked me about this on the phone. At that time, I was baffled, thinking that someone sent it to the wrong address and to the wrong person. Unexpectedly, Shen Ying did this secretly. I thanked her for still caring about her mother's body.

With tears in our eyes, we recalled the acquaintance, love, and companionship of the past seven years, and we talked about the pain and longing of separation in the past two years with tears and smiles.

While we were talking about the past, Shen Ying's mother-in-law called twice, urging Shen Ying to go home early, because Shen Ying's daughter was crying, and the elderly mother-in-law could not comfort the crying, speechless baby. After Shen Ying found out, she couldn't sit still. I could see her thoughts, so I urged Shen Ying to leave early. I looked down at my watch and found that it was 5:38. We have been talking for 3 hours since 2:30 in the afternoon.

Shen Ying stood up to leave, but her steps were hesitant and dignified. When she walked to the door, she stopped again, turned around and looked at me with tears in her eyes and a smile on her face. I stood up and smiled and waved to her, signaling to let her go. Shen Ying didn't speak, just nodded at me with tears in her eyes, and disappeared from my eyes as soon as she turned around and opened the door.

I sat down dejectedly, tears could no longer hold back and fell down in rustle. I really wanted to cry loudly to release the pain and regret in my heart, but reason told me to get rid of this relationship as soon as possible, and I had to face Xiao Zhou again. It suddenly occurred to me that I could still take a last look at Shen Ying by the window, so I hurriedly got up and looked out the window, and brought down the coffee cup in a hurry, but I didn't bother to help it.

I looked out the window and saw Shen Ying standing next to a red BMW car, still looking back at the window on my side. She also saw me appearing at the window, and raised her hand to say goodbye to me. I choked up and raised my hand to say goodbye to her. I watched her dejectedly open the car door, and lowered her head to get into the car. At this time, I finally couldn't suppress my throat, and blurted out these two words from the bottom of my heart - Shen Ying! .

Shen Ying heard my shout, she stopped and hesitated for a moment, then stood up and looked at me. I yelled at her: Shen Ying, don't go, wait for me.

After saying this, I turned around and ran towards the door, and ran towards the entrance of the building when I got out of the private room. The startled waiter shouted at me: Sir, don't run, you haven't...

I didn't care about her, and ran downstairs in a hurry. When I ran to the door of the coffee shop, I knocked over a coffee pot and a cup that a waiter was carrying, but I didn't care about apologizing, let alone any compensation. When I rushed out of the gate, I saw Shen Ying standing quietly beside the car.

I stumbled and ran towards her, and hugged this fiery body that used to belong to me tightly in my arms. I don't think even Shen Ying's husband would be able to separate us on the spot. At that time, I just wanted to hug her tightly, feel her softness, feel her warmth, feel the love she had for me...

The two of us just hugged each other tightly. Although I couldn't see her face, I could feel her crying silently from the trembling of her body, and I was crying even more. The passers-by looked at us with kind smiles, but I didn't care about being shy at this time, I just hugged her tightly, even if the world fell apart at this time, I didn't want to let go again, for fear that if I let go, I would lose her again.

I lost her because of my stupidity, my anger, and my stupid guts. The moment I held her in my arms, I truly realized what it means for a mistake to turn into eternal hatred, and to look back on a century. The kind of remorse, the loss of a loved oneThe feeling made me heartbroken and heartbroken.

We hugged each other tightly like this for a long time before Shen Ying reminded me that it was time for her to go back, and the child should be crying badly by now. I had no choice but to let go of her reluctantly, opened the car door for her with tears in my eyes, and watched her get into the car, start it, turn around, drive into the motorway, and finally drift away in the afterglow of the setting sun.

I wiped away the tears that were streaming down my face, and when I turned around to go to the cafe, I found a waitress standing not far from me, looking at me with a sympathetic smile. My tears could not stop falling again, and I thought that the pain of losing my love forever would be unforgettable in my life.

I, who has always been strong, almost left Shenzhen with tears in my eyes. On the plane to Nanjing that night, my tears were still rolling in my eyes. A 5- or 6-year-old girl next to me asked her mother in a low voice: Mom, does the uncle next to me miss his mother and father, or his wife and children? He seems to be crying.

Baby, don't talk nonsense, this uncle is so old, how can he cry because he misses his relatives? Be careful uncle will be angry when he hears this.

Then this uncle must have lost his most cherished thing, that's why he was so sad. The little girl looked at me and added another sentence unwillingly.

It was a childish speech, but her unintentional words tore open my wound bloody again. Only when you lose something do you know how to cherish it, even a child understands the truth, but I paid such a heavy price to understand it, it really makes me feel ashamed. I know that Shen Ying and I will not have any more stories, but I am sure she must still love me deeply, and I love her deeply, otherwise we would not shed so many tears this afternoon. It's a pity that we can only bury this love deeply in our hearts and dare not touch it easily.

Although I was sad and wept for losing Shen Ying, I was also happy from the bottom of my heart that she finally got a good home. She has a husband who loves him and tolerates her, and a beautiful and lovely child she cherishes. I can stop worrying about her from now on, but I will always think about the good times we used to have. This is a piece of spiritual wealth that belongs to me, and I don't think I will forget it before I die.

Well, now I have to cheer up, I have to think about the little-eyed girl who is waiting for my return in Nanjing, she loves me so much, and I will never let her down again. I have let down a person who loves me so much, and caused her to suffer a devastating blow. How can I let Xiao Zhou be disappointed, sad, or even sink for me again? I want to give all my love to Xiao Zhou, I want to entrust my body and mind to her, never leave her, share weal and woe!

Text Chapter 118: Hope

Zhao Jianxin spent more than an hour telling me about his meeting with Shen Ying in Shenzhen. When it came to the emotional part, he choked up several times. I was moved by the true temperament of this Northeast guy, and I also sighed with him on the phone.

On the phone, I highly praised Zhao Jianxin for taking the initiative to meet Shen Ying, forgiving each other, and letting go of his knots. I originally wanted to persuade Zhao Jianxin to forgive and forget Shen Ying in my heart, but I didn't expect this guy to go straight to Shenzhen to find Shen Ying without saying a word. It seems that he is a smart person and knows what is the most effective way. It's just a pity that they can never go back to the past, resolved their grievances and settled their knots, but left deep regrets for each other. However, it is often difficult to have both sexes in the world. This is also a matter of good fortune and helplessness. I hope they can learn lessons from this matter, treat their pillow people kindly, and not waste their suffering.

I asked Zhao Jianxin what plans he had in the future, whether he would invite Shen Ying when he got married, Zhao Jianxin was silent for a while and said to me: Brother He, I want to discuss with Xiao Zhou before deciding whether to invite Shen Ying, after all Xiao Zhou is mine Lover, I also need to understand her feelings. However, according to Xiao Zhou's kind and tolerant personality, I think she will agree to invite Shen Ying, maybe they all may recognize a sister or something.

Haha... I laughed loudly on the phone, and I said with a smile: This is the best, I am so envious of you, you can have two true loves in your life.

Alas... what are you envious of? After I returned to Nanjing, the thought of Shen Ying made my heart ache. Only after losing me did I know how to cherish it. I am such a jerk. Oh, yes, I plan to go to Heze, Shandong in a few days to visit Shen Ying's parents, apologize to the two elders, and intercede for Shen Ying by the way. I heard from Shen Ying that she has not been forgiven by her father so far, and her parents did not rush to bless her when she remarried, and her father did not even know that she had given birth.

Her mother forgave her daughter, but she was afraid that something might happen to the old man, so she didn't dare to leave her husband to visit Shen Ying. Speaking of it, this is all the sins I made back then. I should solve this problem myself. I am very sorry for my ex-father-in-law. He used to appreciate and like me so much... When Zhao Jianxin said this, his words revealed Something heavy.

I comforted him with kind words on the phone, praised him as a responsible Northeast man, and joked that he has the virtue of correcting when he knows his mistakes, which made the topic easier.

Brother He, just talk about me, how did you and Tan Rui get in touch later? Anyone with a discerning eye can see that Tan Rui has a good impression of you. Zhao Jianxin suddenly brought the topic to me.

When Tan Rui was mentioned, my mood suddenly became gloomy. Because I got to know Zhao Jianxin these days, and I didn't treat him as an outsider, I told him about the quarrel between Tan Rui and me in front of the wordless stele, which made us break up. I didn't say anything about the director's entanglement.

Zhao Jianxin persuaded me to contact Tan Rui on the phone and apologize to her. He thinks Tan Rui is very goodXiu, if a man can be favored by a smart and capable beauty like Tan Rui, it means that this man is also very good. He advised me not to give up the opportunity. After all, I am old and not young. Only by capturing Tan Rui can I prove my excellence and excellence.

I teased him and said: I remember you told me that beautiful women are all beautiful snakes, and you still advised me to be careful, why are you talking like this again now?

Zhao Jianxin laughed and said on the phone: Did I say that? Even if I said that, it would be drunk talk, what are you taking it for real. You know that I was very nervous because of Shen Ying's incident at that time, and it is possible to say anything extreme. Others are outsiders who don't know the truth, so I advise you to make up your own mind.

Damn, he even taught me a lesson! I smiled and quickly changed the topic, and asked when he was going to get married, don't forget to let me know when the time comes.

Zhao Jianxin said that the decoration of the new house is almost finished, and he plans to hold the wedding before the Spring Festival next year, and if it is later, he is afraid that Xiao Zhou's stomach will not be covered. Of course, Xiao Zhou is getting married for the first time, so he will definitely prepare for the wedding in a lively manner, and he can't wrong Xiao Zhou. He will definitely notify me to come and have a wedding wine when the time comes.

We chatted for a while before ending the call. I sat in a chair and seriously thought about Zhao Jianxin's proposal.

Tan Rui is a beautiful, dignified, shrewd and capable intellectual woman with many admirers, and it is indeed complacent to be favored by her. If she can become my wife, it will be very helpful to me, much better than Kiki. But we were close to tearing our faces apart that day, and if I took the initiative to ask her out, I would definitely bow to her, which made me feel very uncomfortable. But I thought about it again and again, and felt that she just had a good impression of me, and it was still unknown whether a relationship could be achieved, so I thought it was just making friends. If this is the case, then if I take the initiative to contact her, or even apologize to her, it will not cause too much psychological pressure on me. The worst thing is that people ignore me.

Thinking of this, I took out my cell phone and called up Tan Rui's cell phone number. When I pressed the dial button, I hesitated again. I felt that calling was still embarrassing, so I should send a text message first to try it out.

I edited an invitation text message, I invited Tan Rui to have the opportunity to play in Hangzhou, as the host, I will definitely welcome her warmly, and at the same time, I apologize to her for the angry words I said that day. It's not against Tan Rui, let alone any discrimination or prejudice against women.

Not long after the text message was sent, I received a reply from Tan Rui. In Tan Rui's reply, her tone was somewhat tolerant. She said that she didn't mind my rudeness that day at all. Instead, she apologized to me, saying that she also got into a dead end that day, and hoped that I could forgive her for not fully honoring my visit to Xi'an with me. Promise of.

This gave me a bit of confidence, and I dared to continue to contact Tan Rui. The two of us started texting back and forth, and it became more and more addictive. In the end, Tan Rui proposed to go to QQ to chat. Her fingers hurt from pressing the buttons on the mobile phone. By the way, she wanted to send me a dozen photos of us traveling together.

I turned on the computer, logged into QQ, added Tan Rui as a friend, and found that Tan Rui’s QQ nickname was Waiting for Blossoms, and her profile picture was a young and beautiful woman holding flowers and smiling, and she was very interested in flowers and plants.

Tan Rui first sent me photos, and I was busy receiving and watching them. Most of the photos are the scenes of me and Tan Rui traveling in Famen Temple, and there are also two group photos of me and Tan Rui. In the group photo, Tan Rui is bright and charming, with a lively expression, holding my arm and snuggling beside me. But I was serious and old-fashioned, seeing the expressions of the two of them were extremely incongruous, blinding Tan Rui's affection for me.

After receiving these photos, we started chatting. At first, we remained somewhat reserved with each other, and our words were a little polite and cautious. It seemed that we had left the enthusiasm of the text message chat just now in Java, but after a while, we immediately warmed up again. We asked each other about each other's preferences, and even asked about each other's family members, and then began to joke and ridicule each other.

Tan Rui ridiculed my QQ nickname. I am kind and old-fashioned, but it matches me very well.

I sent an angry QQ emoji and asked her, am I really as hideous and boring as she said? Tan Rui only replied with one word: yes.

I sent another QQ emoticon of grievance, and asked her if she was like this, why did she still get so close to me in Xi'an? Could it be that she has a heavy taste and is interested in old-fashioned?

Tan Rui posted a QQ emoticon of winking her eyes and sticking her tongue out, and then there was a line of words under her nickname: I just like to tease the old man, and seeing the old man being teased by me, I will happily eat two more bowls of rice .

I replied: You have a really big appetite, so aren't you afraid that you will turn yourself into a fat girl and won't be able to get married?

Tan Rui sent an angry QQ emoticon, and replied: I don't care, I don't want to marry you...

Seeing that Tan Rui was like a child in the QQ chat, I put my hands behind my head, fell into the back of the chair, and laughed silently.

(End of Volume Three)