【My Mother】(6-7)

Author: Xiye
Published in the first clubhouse on September 1, 2022

Chapter 6

"Mom, don't... don't leave me!" I woke up from the nightmare again, staring blankly at the creaking fan on the roof, feeling indescribably depressed. restlessness.

Four or five days have passed since the last time I found out about my mother and the old man, but I haven't been able to recover from that nightmare! I was like a scared mouse, hiding in our rented room and not going out for days! I dare not go out of this room, afraid of leaving this only safe haven, and even more afraid that as soon as I step out of the room, even this only safe haven will be lost now!

In this narrow and closed room, no matter whether it is day or night, no matter when I am awake or sleeping, the voice I heard in the yard of the old man’s house that day is always in my ears The reverberations tormented me all the time, and I even wondered if I was suffering from schizophrenia!

While this nightmare was tormenting me, it made me even more puzzled. I couldn't understand why my mother agreed to that old man, and why my mother was willing to be with such a disgusting man. Old man having sex! I think my mother must have some unavoidable difficulties, or she was caught by that disgusting old man! But I don't understand what kind of thing it would be that made my mother, who was so strong and never bowed her head to life, willing to do that disgusting thing with that old and ugly person!

I must save my mother! Although I don't know what the relationship between my mother and that old man is, and I don't know what the old man used to blackmail my mother, but no matter what the reason is, I will never let my mother continue to be bullied by that disgusting old man! I clenched my fists and swore secretly, regained my energy, and gradually had a clear idea in my mind!

The last time I blocked my mother at the entrance of the alley, I realized that my own blind impulses can't solve the problem at all. The first thing I need to do now is to understand why my mother agreed to that Old man, find out what the old man is holding to blackmail my mother. Only in this way can I come up with a corresponding countermeasure. That old man is my breakthrough!

After I had a thought, I washed my face, cheered up and walked out of the room again, and walked out of the group of rented houses, wanting to see the old man's true face, but when I just got up and pushed the door and walked out Renting a room, but seeing a person who should never appear at the corner of the alley!

An old man with white hair was squatting in the corner, smoking a cigarette, and then he probably heard the door opening, and suddenly raised his head and looked in my direction. At that moment, I actually saw panic, nervousness, and a little joy from the heart in the old man's eyes!

'He, why is he here! 'I stood at the door and glanced at the old man, and quickly looked away nervously, suppressing the grief and indignation in my heart, gritted my teeth, walked towards the old man step by step, pretending to be calm... "cough Cough...cough cough..." The old man squatted in the corner and looked at me, pinching the cigarette with his thumb and forefinger, puffing hard, maybe he sucked too hard, and suddenly coughed loudly! At this time, I just walked to the old man's side, and I was startled by the old man's coughing, and I couldn't help but glance at the old man again!

The old man leaned on the back wall with one hand as if he wanted to stand up, and opened his disgusting big mouth as if he wanted to speak, but until I walked past the old man, the old man didn't stand up, let alone He didn't make any sound, just showed his jagged yellow teeth, and let out a bitter smile!

"Huhu...huhu..." After walking out of the alley and away from the old man, I leaned against the corner of the wall and breathed heavily. God knows how much courage I used to pretend to be calm just now! God knows how much I wanted to rush up and send this frail old man to his son! But I can't do it, I'm just a boy who has just turned sixteen, and I haven't even fought with my classmates before! Although I have imagined how to kill this old man countless times in my heart, but when this old man really appeared in front of me, I was so nervous that I couldn't breathe!

After taking a big breath, I straightened up, ignoring the astonished eyes of passers-by, and ran like crazy on the road until I ran to the point where I had no more strength, until I slumped on the side of the road for leisure. on the chair!

'Why is he here? He must know this is where my mother and I live, but what the hell is he trying to do? ’ In this hot summer, countless questions lingered in my mind. I couldn’t figure it out, and I hated myself for being cowardly and incompetent.

I don't know how long it has passed, but I finally shed my tears, and my nervousness and depression were relieved a little. I raised my hand and glanced at the watch on my right hand. Five years, but still accurate, I clearly remember that this was bought by my mother when I was admitted to junior high school! At this moment, the hour hand was about to point to eighteen o'clock. I stood up suddenly and ran back to the original road. I must find out what happened!

I don't know if the old man has come home, and I don't know if my mother will go to the old man's house tonight, but when I stand at the entrance of the alley, when I see the familiar Electric cars, my fragile heart seems to be hit by a heavy hammer! I know that the old man is back, and I know that my mother has come to the old man's house again!

I am angry, I am nervous, and I am afraid, but the obsession in my heart makes me still walk firmly towards the alley! But when I stood in front of the two crimson doors again, I hesitated. Although I didn't want to admit it, I already guessed what I would face when I opened the door. That old man insulted!

‘Do you want to go in? Do you want to go in? ’ I questioned myself repeatedly, but I still couldn’t find the answer, but my hand was already stuck to the cold door, and the door was pushed open a little!

I still went in, knowing that I was about to face the thing I didn't want to face, I still went in! I just want to understand why my mother agreed to that old man! I just want to figure out what that old man wants to do! It's not enough that this disgusting old man violated my mother, why does he show up where we live?

"Xiaoyan... Thank you, really thank you for being willing to accompany me, old man! If you hadn't come to take care of me all day long, talking with me, maybe I would have been suffocated at home long ago It's gone!" As soon as I walked into the small courtyard, I heard the old man selling miserably, hiding behind the sycamore tree, I stared at the door angrily, thinking in my heart that my mother was kind, otherwise he would die, who would die? Follow him!

"Brother Wang, go out and do more activities when you have time, don't stay at home all day thinking about death or something, or you will get sick if you are not sick!" My mother's voice is still So gentle, even though she was violated by that disgusting old man, she still kindly relieves the old man, hoping that the old man can open his heart knot!

"Hey...Xiaoyan, you don't know the pain of bereavement!" Hearing this, the old man sighed and did not speak for a long time. Just when I thought that the old man died in the room, The old man said again, "Xiaoyan, I really went out today."

"Oh?" My mother was a little surprised in her tone, she probably didn't expect the old man to go out, and then asked again, "Where have you been? Did you go for a walk in the park?"

"No... Xiaoyan, if I tell you, don't get angry!" The old man was silent for a moment after saying no, then turned to my mother Said a little timidly, my mother asked suspiciously why am I angry?

"I went to your house this afternoon!" Facing my mother's words, the old man said such a sentence, and I couldn't help but tremble while standing behind the big tree! Sure enough, it wasn't by accident that the old man appeared there! He really had a purpose!

"Ah! You! You are crazy!" After hearing what the old man said, my mother seemed to be more nervous than me, and suddenly asked loudly, "What are you doing at our house!"

"I just can't help it... I can't help but want to see it!" The old man's deep and hoarse voice seemed a little aggrieved, followed by the sound of lighting a cigarette, "Bah...but don't worry, I absolutely did not disturb your son, I just took a look from a distance!"

"That's not okay!" After hearing what the old man said, my mother seemed to be relieved, and said firmly that that's not okay , After finishing speaking, he said to the old man in a threatening tone, "Brother Wang, let me tell you, you must not disturb my son! Otherwise, even if I try my best, I will never let you go!"

Listening to the determination in my mother's words, I couldn't help but feel warm in my heart. I know that my mother is definitely not just saying it casually. I believe that my mother will definitely do what she says. My mother still cares about me , my mother's favorite is still me!

"Hey, Xiaoyan, I have no other meaning, I just miss my child too much!" The old man sighed helplessly, but I couldn't help being stunned, he missed his child What are you looking at me for? I am not his child!

"Brother Wang, I understand what you mean, but Ming Yang has just finished the operation not long ago, he can't stand any stimulation, in case... in case something happens, you What should I do as a mother?" After the old man finished speaking, my mother's tone softened, with deep exhaustion and helplessness in her voice.

"Yes...but he will know one day! How long are you going to keep it from him?" The old man said another sentence that sounded inexplicable to me. What is someday? i will know what would i know What is this old man and my mother hiding from me? I leaned on the tree and pricked up my ears, for fear of missing any words.

"At least not now!" My mother said this after a long silence. I still couldn't figure out what was going on, but my mother said very firmly, "This I will never tell him about this in my life!"

"Are you afraid that he will feel burdened?" The old man asked an inexplicable question, and then sighed, "Hey, you are also a What a great mother! When the future comes, how do you plan to explain it to him?"

"I haven't figured it out yet..." After a long silence, my mother said this seriously, I don't understand what is the meaning of the conversation between the two, what does it mean to not think about it? What is how to explain to me? explain to me what? I vaguely guessed something, but I didn't dare to think too deeply!

"Forget it, let's not talk about this! Brother Wang, you have almost eaten, I will pack up and leave, and I will go to deliver food later!" Just as I was about to hear When it came to some important information, my mother's words stopped abruptly, as if she didn't want to say any more, which made my heart hang high and couldn't let go!

"Xiaoyan...can you..." MaybeHearing that my mother was leaving, the old man's tone was a little anxious, a little wretched, and his hoarse voice also subsided, "Xiaoyan, can you do it with me again today..."

' Do not! no! 'Hearing the obscene and disgusting voice of the old man, I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth and shouted in my heart, begging my mother to sternly refuse, and begging my mother to leave quickly, but my mother couldn't hear the screaming in my heart at all, and couldn't even hear it. Knowing that her son was standing in the yard, she just whispered shyly, "Brother Wang, didn't you just..."

"Xiaoyan, you may not know that since I After my son is gone, you are my only hope of living. Only when I am with you can I be a little happier. Every time you come, I hope you can stay for a while, even if you just talk to me, I can be happy It's been a long time!" After the disgusting old man interrupted my mother's words, he began to behave miserably again. I was standing next to the big tree and gritted my teeth in hatred after listening to it. After hearing this, my mother hurriedly spoke to comfort the old man, "Old Wang Brother, I also want to spend more time with you, but I still have work to do!"

"Xiaoyan, just for a while, just for a while, I won't delay too long!" Maybe Sensing a trace of hesitation in my mother's tone, the old man's voice was a little urgent, followed by the sound of rustling footsteps, and my mother's flustered voice, "Well... Old Brother Wang, you...don't do this!"

"Xiaoyan, please fulfill me this time!" The old man's voice was extremely disgusting. In this disgusting voice, I even heard the old man's mouth smacking, what is he doing! Thinking of my mother being kissed by this disgusting old man, a flame of incomparable anger burned in my chest instantly, I wish this old man would die suddenly!

"Xiaoyan, look, I'm so hard! You just promise me!" Accompanied by the messy and noisy voice, the old man said disgusting words in an extremely disgusting and wretched way, "Xiaoyan, Your body smells so good! Do you know that every time I smell the fragrance of your body, I will become like this below, please hurry...help me get it!"

"Don't... ...Old Brother Wang...don't be like this..." My mother's tone was flustered with shyness, shyness with trepidation, and after struggling for a while, I realized that my mother's breathing became short, "Hoohoo...Old Brother Wang ...you...you go and wash first..."

"Xiaoyan, I have already washed it...every time before you come, I will wash it in advance...just to wait for you... Waiting to make out with you!" The old man's words were intermittent, mixed with the sound of kisses, listening to the old man's disgusting voice, I almost felt like I was going crazy! The raging fire in my chest can't be suppressed at all, I want to kill him! I want to kill him!

Following the heart-piercing cry from the bottom of my heart, I walked to the door without knowing it! When I discovered the change in my standing position, I was so nervous that I couldn't breathe. No, I must never let my mother find out! Otherwise... Otherwise, how will I get along with my mother in the future!

I hid in the corner and could barely breathe. Hearing the noisy sound coming from the room, I couldn't help stretching out my head and looked into the room through the gap in the doorway, but I almost fainted on the spot die over!

"Well..." The old man in the room hugged my mother tightly, forcing my mother to the corner, his big head with white hair clucking on my mother's blushing face Kiss, my mother's blushing face is full of painful expressions, her eyes are closed tightly but there is no way to avoid it, she can only tilt her head and lean against the wall to avoid the old man's dirty and ugly face!

The old man's evil claws even grabbed my mother's chest, and rubbed my mother's plump breasts through the clothes. What made me even more angry was that the disgusting old man's pants were half off. The underwear and trousers were drooping at the feet, and the old man's disgusting dirt was rubbing against my mother like this!

"Xiaoyan... help me, touch me with your hands!" The old man frantically licked my mother's rosy cheeks, and that disgusting big hand actually took my mother's hand, Wants my mom to touch his filthy thing with her hands!

'No! No, mom! 'Looking at my mother's painful expression, I yelled heart-piercingly, almost unable to control my urge to rush into the house to kill, and then saw my mother trembling, following the old man's hand On that old man's disgusting filth!

My mother's whole arm seemed to be shaking, as if she was struggling not to touch the old man's dirty thing! But after the old man took my mother's soft hand to hold the dirty thing, my mother didn't let go, even until the old man let go of my mother's hand and climbed up to my mother's chest again, my mother's hand unexpectedly Still caught on the ugly dirty thing on the old man's lower body!

'Mom! ’ Tears welled up in my red eyes, but when I saw my mother’s hand still resting on the old man’s lower body, I suddenly felt as if my body was drained dry, and I no longer had the strength to rush in!

I leaned helplessly at the door, watching the old man with an extremely obscene expression on his face, tearing my mother's clothes, pulling off my mother's bra, and holding my mother's mouth The breasts, and even took off my mother's pants... "Um..." Amidst my mother's extremely suppressed moan, the old man let out a disgusting moan, and his purple ugly face was full of indescribable pleasure , rushed into my mother's body!

Chapter 7

The night is gradually falling, making the already narrow and closed alley even darker. I have already escaped from the yard of the old man's house, hiding in the corner of the alley He gasped heavily, then raised his hand abruptly, facing his hot face fiercelyA slap in the face!

Following my slap with all my strength, clear five-finger handprints appeared on my face, I shrank in the corner and bit my arm, trying not to let myself make a sound, Dou Da The teardrops are rolling down!

I hate that disgusting old man for violating my mother, I hate why my mother didn't resist, and I hate myself for being weak and incompetent, not daring to rush in to save my mother! And... What's even more unacceptable to me is that my own body actually reacted! Just now, I just saw my mother being bullied by that disgusting old man, and seeing my mother's plump body exposed, I actually had a fucking physical reaction! This is also the reason why I slapped myself hard. In my opinion, this kind of physical reaction of myself is simply a blasphemy to my mother!

I never thought that I would have such emotions for my mother, but when I heard my mother's slightly heavy breathing, when I saw my mother's blushing cheeks, and saw my mother With her naked white body, her lower body has obviously become firmer!

I am so ashamed that I even want to chop off my dirty thing! I raised my hand and roughly pressed my lower body, stubbornly wanting to break off the firm lower body, but when my hand touched my lower body, an indescribable pleasure hit my whole body by the way, just now I The scene of my mother being raped by the old man came to my mind again. I couldn't help being alert, and I shuddered instantly, and my tightly arched body instantly went limp!

"Ah!" I broke down and cried, screaming in despair, my clothes were almost soaked in sweat, I stood up straight against the wall, and staggered out of the gloomy and dark alley !

Standing by the river in a daze for a long time, looking at the sparkling clear water, I have the urge to jump down to die! Even if no one knew about doing that shameful thing to my mother, I still felt like a beast! No, I'm not even as good as an animal, even an animal knows how to lick a calf, but what about me?

I don't know how long I have been standing by the river, but I still have the courage to jump down. I think I am a cowardly and incompetent person! Faced with his mother being bullied, he didn't have the courage to stand up and protect his mother, and even did such shameless things! I yelled weakly at the empty river, waving my hands with my teeth and claws, and ran along the river in a desperate manner, until I had no more strength, until I was tired and collapsed on the ground, until the last drop was drained Tears... "Mingyang, why did you come back? What did you do so late?" When I opened the door, my mother was washing clothes, she raised her head and looked at me while talking, my mother may have seen it With the fingerprints on my face, I quickly put down the clothes on my hands and came to me, and asked with confusion and distress, "Hey, Mingyang, what happened to your face? Did you fight? Who hit you? Tell mom Mom, go find him!"

My mother casually wiped her hands on her clothes, her tired eyes were full of anger, like an old cow protecting a calf. I didn't dare to face my mother's eyes, and I was even more ashamed to reveal the source of the handprints on my face. I dodged my mother's concerned gaze and walked into the room. I said with a sullen head, "No, I just accidentally fell!"

"Hey..." My mother looked at my back and sighed, but seeing that I didn't want to say anything, she didn't ask any more questions. She just walked to the sink and continued washing clothes, "Mingyang, mother knows you Now that I have grown up, there are some things I don’t want to tell my mother, but you are still a student after all, if you encounter something that you can’t solve by yourself, you must tell your mother as soon as possible!”

“Hmm... I know, I’m going to sleep if there’s nothing else to do!” I had already climbed to the top bunk when my mother spoke, took off my clothes with my back to my mother, curled up and lay down on the bed after a promise, and then turned my head unwillingly to stare at her. Looking at my mother's figure.

Under the orange light, my mother seems to be tirelessly busy, but looking at my mother's slightly bent waist, raising her hand to wipe the sweat from time to time, I know that my mother must be very tired and tired. Hard work, my mother is just persevering for me and for our family!

"Xiaoyan, the dishes you cook are really delicious. It would be great if you could cook for me every day in the future!" A few days later in the afternoon, my mother went to the old man's house again, gradually Yes, I found that my mother seems to come to this old man’s house on a regular basis, usually about once every three or four days, and she always stops by to buy some food after get off work to help him cook some meals. I’m not sure if this is the case My mother made an agreement with the old man, but I also changed from following every day to once every three or four days, but I always ran into my mother's electric car just right there.

"Brother Wang, I also want to take care of you more, but you know that I am very busy at work, besides... hey, forget it..." I was still hiding in the parasol tree of the old man's house Eavesdropping under the tree, I desperately want to know why my mother has to have sex with such a disgusting old man! And their conversation last time, why did my mother insist on explaining it to me? Are they still planning to confess this relationship to me? I really can't imagine what it would be like if this disgusting old man really appeared in the life of my mother and me. That is definitely the last thing I want to see. I will never accept it, and I will never Allow this to happen!

"Xiaoyan, it's not easy for me to meet you. I know that you owe a lot of money for your child. In this way, I still have some money here. If you need it, you can take it first Use it!" Maybe because of smoking for a long time, the old man's voice is still hoarse and deep, listening to what the old man said, he actually wants to give my mother money? DisasterDid my mother stay with the old man because she owed money? Is this old man still a millionaire?

"No! I can't! How can I ask for your money!" But just now when I thought about it, my mother directly rejected the old man. My mother's answer made me breathe a sigh of relief. It also made me feel guilty because of my doubts. How could my mother, who is so strong, give in because of money?

"Xiaoyan, what is this called? With this kind of relationship between us, my money is your money! Besides, you are in difficulty now, and you still have to take time to take care of me. Besides, every time you When I came here, I sold so many things, don’t they all need money!” What! My mother not only came to take care of this old man, let this old man take advantage of my mother, but even bought things for this disgusting old man with her own money! Listening to the old man's words, I gritted my teeth in hatred. This old man is even shameless. Why is he so thick-skinned? Knowing my mother's current situation, how can he eat the food my mother paid for with such peace of mind!

"Brother Wang, these are two different things!" Hearing what the old man said, my mother spoke in a solemn tone, "You helped us so much back then, but what I'm doing now is worth it!" What?"

"Hey, sister Xiaoyan, with your temper, I don't even know how to persuade you! I know you are a strong person... Come on, I won't say anything in the future It’s about giving you money, if I say anything more, it may be an insult to you!" The old man sighed, and then said, "Well, you are not allowed to buy anything for me in the future, I will buy everything in advance!"

"It's okay..." After a moment of silence, my mother agreed softly, but I was suffering even more under the big tree. Obviously I was about to hear the important point. I already said that this old man helped us The family was very busy, but the two of them stopped suddenly, and I scratched my heart with all my claws, but there was nothing I could do!

"That... Old Brother Wang, I want to discuss something with you." After a while, my mother suddenly spoke, with a bit of embarrassment in her tone, and the old man asked suspiciously What's the matter, my mother hesitated and said, "Well, about our previous agreement, I think... I wonder if we can wait until Mingyang goes to college..."

"Ah! Xiaoyan you What do you mean? Are you planning to go back on your word?" Hearing what my mother said, the old man reacted greatly, and his tone of voice instantly raised a few times, almost as if he was questioning my mother. Listening to the old man talking to my mother like this, I couldn't help but get angry, why should he treat my mother like this!

"No...it's not..." However, as soon as my anger surged up, my mother hurriedly explained, "Brother Wang, don't worry, just listen to me slowly, I have absolutely no regrets Meaning, but...but... Hey, Brother Wang, actually, I've thought about it for a long time, and Mingyang really can't let Mingyang know about that! He's in his second year of high school, and he's about to face the college entrance examination. If it's because of this I will be ashamed of him for the rest of my life!"

I can't figure out what is going on! What is it that affects me so much? My heart was raised high, but my mother said it vaguely, so I couldn't tell the difference!

"But...but..." The old man seemed to be unwilling, and even said a few words, but my mother hurriedly added, "Brother Wang, although I promised you at the beginning, I also hope that you It's not easy to understand me..." After finishing speaking, my mother took a deep breath, as if she had made an important decision, and then said slowly, "Brother Wang, didn't you always want me to... I promise you..."

"Really?" The old man's tone was full of surprise and disbelief, I don't understand what my mother promised the old man this time, so that the old man changed instantly He changed his attitude, but hearing the unconcealable surprise in the old man's tone, I think it must be a bad thing!

"Yeah!" My mother agreed heavily, and the old man asked in a low voice if it was okay now. After a moment of silence, my mother said that I would wait until the meal was over, but it took two minutes for my mother to finish talking. , with a clear sound of the collision of bowls and chopsticks against the table, the old man said directly that he had finished eating.

"You..." My mother was a little helpless and shy when she said you, but the old man said anxiously, "Xiaoyan, I'm really full."

"Hey... okay, go and wash it..." My mother sighed helplessly, followed by footsteps, I guess it was the old man cleaning his dirty things, less than two Minute old man's footsteps sounded again, "I've finished washing..."

What's the matter? What the hell is going on! I don't understand why this old man is so surprised and anxious! Obviously my mother has already had a relationship with him, what else could make this old man so impatient? I suppressed the nervousness and panic in my heart, and quietly walked towards the door, and then I saw a scene that made me collapse!

That disgusting old head was paralyzed, stretched out and half lying on the old sofa, my mother knelt beside the old man, frowning and holding the old man's extremely dirty lower body, I rubbed gently in my disbelieving eyes.

"No!" Looking at my mother's actions, as if guessing what was about to happen, I couldn't help screaming in despair! But my mother couldn't hear the voice in my heart at all, she just stared at the old man's dirty lower body and struggled for a moment, then slowly took a deep breath, slowly opened her mouth, and slowly lowered her head, unexpectedly Put the old man's ugly dirty thing in his mouth!

"Ah!" The old man opened his mouth exaggeratedly and let out a dull moan.The wrinkles on the face seem to be stretched out! The old man put his hand on my mother's hair, stroked it gently, and said hoarsely to my mother, "Xiaoyan...so nice...really comfortable!"

I feel like I'm almost going crazy! Seeing my dearest mother doing such a thing with that disgusting old man, the strong anger made me tremble uncontrollably. I unconsciously grabbed the door frame hard, and my nails almost sank into the old wood!

"Squeak..." Under intense tension and anger, I accidentally made a sound! The small sound scared me so much that I held my breath and didn't dare to move, but even so, the sound was heard by two people in the room. My mother supported the old man's thigh and raised her head and asked suspiciously, "Brother Wang, what's the sound?" "

There was a trace of saliva on the corner of my mother's mouth, sticking to the old man's dirty things, and she raised her hand and wiped the corner of her mouth with the back of her hand when she was speaking, and there was a tinge of saliva on her rosy cheeks. With a charm! I held my breath and didn't dare to move, but my heart hurt like hell!

"There's no sound, maybe I don't know the wild cats coming from there!" The old man must have heard the sound, but the old man must not have the heart to care about such things at this time, holding my mother's hand Said eagerly, "Okay, Xiaoyan, I won't come here, don't be suspicious, let's hurry up!"

"You!" My mother sighed softly, He glanced at the door lightly, then continued to lower his head, and once again opened his mouth to enclose the old man's lower body!

The moment my mother turned her head to look at the door just now, I was so frightened that I almost passed out. Get out of the yard!

I couldn't help but wanted to scream, I wanted to vent my suppressed anger, I picked up a stone and threw it hard at the crimson door, with a loud 'bang' Ring, I ran out of the alley in a frenzy!

【To be continued】